My Story, My Life

kuini's mom is a bitch

2008-04-26T12:26:00.003+08:00

omg, kuini mom's is unbelieveable.
one night me and kuini slp on the train and missed the stop.
we din expect her mom to come pick us up.
we intend to wait 30mins for the next train to go home,
so kuini call her mom to tell her.
and her mom said:" how can u fucking miss the station. u better fucking come down on the next fucking station. i was waiting for u at the fucking station"
geez how educated [sarcarstically]
seriously there is no need to be so rude to ur own child even thou she is not ur real bone and flesh.
when we got off the next station, she was honking at us.
wad a bitch??!!
in the car we kept quiet, she she start giving us a lecture.
saying tat we should have apologised.

yes we should have, but we wont.
we would if she wasnt tat rude, swearing like no body business.
thinking tat she is very high in society,
she say tat our job is useless. well its still a job!!
plus we r still young not like her an old saggy and flabby ginger, we have plenty of time to find a good job so wad's the rush!!
she is so extremly rude, we dint argue with her, we kept silent, so she look like idiot.
when we got home kuini went in the room and she cried.
sigh, sometimes i really pity her.
her mom is such a bitch.
her mom was angry because her bf was waiting for her and she was planing to go to his,
but she told kuini tat she was tired tats y she got so angry. whore.
after we got home her mom went disappear with her BF.

so angry if she wasnt kuini mom and tat im goin to hers, i'll probably argue with her.
so rude. lucky kuini is not like her so ill manner.

bad day no.2

2008-04-26T12:04:00.002+08:00

a continuously of bad luck.
feeling so tired in the morning, trying to wake up for work.
kinda din happen, so i missed the first train,
'its ok I'm still early if i catch the 55 past train'
reach the train station 10 mins early.
it announce: the train will be 10 mins late..
Great.
10 mins its okay..
after 10 mins, it announce again:
the train will be 6 mins late.
and by the time it get to the station it was 25 mins late.
5 mins more to the next train scheduled.
so angry
and i was 18 mins late for work.

after work order ice cream, salad and yoghurt.
they ran out of sundae mix for my ice cream.
ran out of salad dressing of wad i wanted.
so i went into make my own ice cream. kuini was holding my salad for me,
she dropped half of it. -.-
Great.
so morgan had to made another one for me.

omg... wad a day again.
dono wad happn so unlucky.

unluckiest day

2008-04-26T11:21:00.002+08:00

24 June 2008 was the most interesting day in my memory.
hmm.. wasn't good..
feeling so unlucky.
first i got a striking pain above my crotch, when i laugh and stretch
den i have my period,
so i went to work feeling so temperamental like a volcano tat might erupt any moment.
it was fine until someone stole my drink -.-!!
and it happen to be kuini.
grrr.
also it was busy and corrina kept bumping on to me, becoz she is short and very plum.
tat made it worst.
after work i feel better,
met up with connie and shanie and daddy to Chinese restaurant to have dinner.
after dinner, we were at the traffic light waiting for the light to turn red to we could go.
[tum dump]
a loud drop.
turn to see what happen was jux instinctively.
a lady has juz fallen from the top of the escalator to the bottom.
body was twisted.
she was unconscious.
her kids was screaming and crying at the top of the escalator.
her grocery was everywhere,
someone stop the escalator.
security guards came within seconds.
an ambulance came within minutes.

we din stay for the show, purely because we have to go back to redbank in ispwich which i outta brisbane.

daddy drove..
half way the police called,
connie drop her lv purse in the carpark and someone handed into the police.
intending to go back into the city to get it tomorrow.
on the highway,
dady missed the exit entrance when we should have exited,
so he continue travelling, not knowing how to get back to the opposite lane of the high way.
after a while, we r at some wulu wulu place.
and we r outa ispwich.
great. the day jux got better.[sarcarstically]
so we drove out in some random exit and finally got back to brisbane but never back onto the highway for some reason.

gahh.
so we end up back in the city, got connie purse and went back to redbank from there.
the whole journey took us 1h50mins and plus another 35 mins to get home from the city.
and we got home at around 12

taking the pram and stuff outa the boot of the car,
i got connie 2 cups of yoghurt in a bag, placed properly.
when she put the bag of yoghurt inthe boot, she open the bag and chucked her bottle and the baby bottle in the bag. and put it in the boot.

reach home, taking out everything from the boot, the bag of yoghurt exploded,
there's a hole under the paper bag, the yoghurt was leaking all over, and dripped on the pram and on the yard. creating a mess.

now isnt tat an interesting bad day??

great huh!!

redbank

2008-04-26T11:00:00.002+08:00

moved house.
house owner sold the house.
no where to stay.
so temporary stay put at raymund's hse[ daddy friend]
raymund went to his girlfriend house to stay and gave the whole house to us to live in temporary.

kuini came to ours one day7 am in the morning.
shanie me and kuini was sleepin on 1 queen size bed.
kuini wa so close to the edge, so i told her to be careful and not fall on the floor otherwise tat will be my morning entertainment.

30 mins later,
[KA BOM]
SHANIE WAS ON THE FLOOR.
and i laughed my lungs out.. lol

giselle was so noisy all morning.
she kept trying to talk..
making noise...
eeeahhhhhohhhoooyaake......
she's 4 months old le.. =]
so cute..
her laughing sounds like crying.. hahahas

emotional: the past times.

2008-03-06T20:32:00.002+09:00

its been a long time since i view zhuzhu de blog le.
went there a moment ago,
suddenly felt so emotional, wanna cry.
i miss those days where we chill out at chillz bar.
seeing them going to chilz bar without me made me feel so empty and Sad.
sign oh well im jux the odd one out.

i jux hope my next trip back will be fun, and i hope to spent more time with her than anyone else unless.. meh..

connie wan to go to thailand and she asked if i wan to go, i don mind but im not sure if it is gonna happen or not. we shall c.

i wonder: if mommy really rent the whole house out to someone elses then where am i goin to stay when i go back for hoiday? i don really like the idea of staying with my aunt. -.- hmm.

uni or not

2008-03-06T19:53:00.002+09:00

woo hoo, remember how i got into UQ and i was whining bout how far i have to travel so on and on, so i waited for the second offer and got in to my desire campus QUT. after attending a week of Uni i feel so weird but fun, i reckon its so hard to make new friend coz my lecture is so big, up to 400 student in a classroom listening to a lecturer lecturing, plus every class different people sits beside you, but lucky for me on my first week i've made a couple friend so wasnt too bad.

however after the first week i've decided to defer uni for a year. Reasons: the fees are expansive every semester i have to pay $2650 UPFRONT!! upfront how am i gonna produce such money in such a short notice and woking in MacDonald cant help much at all. Plus Daddy is not gonna have the money for me, he said he would get the sum for me but i doubt it. coz he will either go to casino and try his luck or get advance pay which i don really want him to do it. so nah not gonna happen nor is it happening. so its all about me now. plus my textbooks are Frigging expansive text book which are complusory are already costing me $530 and if i were to buy the other reference textbook which are not complusory pretty sure they are gonna cozt me about $700+. so i need at least $3000 for uni each semester. thinking bout the $ makes my head big already.

so yeah defer and work.

oh good news for me, i got a pay rise $15.34 an hour. Woo hoo~ go me.
today i talked to my manager bout being a full timer but unfortunately my stall do not want full timers, so i can only be a casual and get 38hours as the maximum hours. oh oh another good news, kyile said on the next manager meeting she is going to bring up the matter of letting me become an area coordinator which means if i really got promoted my pay is gonna rise again. wahh.. sound so shoik hor but no promises. so its best not to have my high hopes on.

sigh 38 hour a week is actually not quite enough.
so i'm going to look for a second job tml at the cookie shop. hehe..
and wish me luck yeah? ^.*

freaky dream

2008-01-27T18:58:00.000+09:00

grandma died after an operation on her leg, during midnight 3am,
dad heard the news the next day and flew back to singapore during the night to attend grandma funeral. because grandma has converted into a christian, the funeral was only held for 3day.

i had a dream, when i woke up, i found myself crying.
coz, i dreamt about grandma and granddady, they came to my hse for a visit,
granddaddy stood there in the balcony smiling and grandma was having a small talk with me,
and when i ask if she want to stay and have some food to eat,
grnad ma told me that she cant stay and had to leave coz she is on her way to go.

her body was cremated on friday.
before she pass away she asked: why are there childeren visiting me?
childern that we cant see.
mommy say she pass away peacefully,
she was smilling when she die.

rest in peace grandma.
you'll be missed.
love.
...

change of mind uni

2008-01-20T23:23:00.000+09:00

after a couple days of thinking and desicsion making,
i've came to the final disicion that i don want UQ anymore.

its at ispwich!! its outa brisbane, its a 7 zone district!!.
its gonna take me more than 2h to reach my campus.
meaning less sleeping in time and lotsa travelling..
i don think i can do it if i were to work and study at the same time when my campus is so far away from home and work.

i tot of moving into the campus,
but thinking about how much its gonna cost me, no deal...
so yeah, i think i am going to QUT [ queensland university of technology] now at kelvin grove which is within a 3zone compound still..
but i will need to call QTAC to make that changes tomorrow...
agrr..
so many complications..
its all gonna be worth it i guess.

well, if i cant go the the best uni i can still go to the top uni of brisbane ^^

UQ wants me!!

2008-01-20T23:21:00.000+09:00

UQ!!
UQ wants me..!!!!
WOO HOO~~~

i went to my QTAC to check which uni has offer me a place.
and UQ offered me a full time nursing course..

i'm so over the moon...
WooHooo!!!~~~~

bad day at work

2008-01-20T23:20:00.001+09:00

Work is driving me to my grave soon. This particular guy CHRIS, he is a noob.
I’m fine with noob but not this noob who think he is all so smart because he got an OP 1 and he has “too much attitude” quoted from Jeremy Houston. Frigging hell, he is short sighted and he doesn’t wears his glasses, and guess what? I pulled out a double cheese burger clam, placed the bun in place, sauced it when I was about to put the onion on, he came over quickly and put the large onion instead of the small onion on. So I told him, “Erm, it’s a double cheeseburger so it’s small onion not large” and he told me he though it was a double quarter. O.O… the clams are so different the size is so different if u were to compare the 2 burgers. Grrr, so he left me with the mistake burger. How nice of him -.-…

That shift I was told by the restaurateur to be in charged of the whole back area and my responsibility is to keep everything in place. I placed James Wu on line because he is fast enough to manage 3 orders himself, and Christ on grill/ fry because he can’t be left on line for 2 minutes, and if I were to place him on line we are going to wasted a lot of buns, Cameron, he volunteer himself to do jobs and for me I was on deli and a chaser on line. On top of that I had to check and assure that all breakfast stuff has been pulled out from the freezer to defrost, ready for tomorrow use, and make up more presets for deli station.

Christ was on grill/ fry. The bottom of the grill was greasy as it has stains of fats drips. I wiped down the first grill for him and passed him a grill cloth to wipe down the second grill.
W: [passing grill cloth] can u please wipe down the grill.
C: oh ok. [Placed the grill cloth on the bench]

3minutes later I look at his grill and my grill.

W: have u wiped down the grill?
C: agrr, [wiping the grill]

Christ stood up and put the grill cloth on the bench again. I look at his grill:
W: u missed a spot. In fact you miss 3 spot.
C: why clean the grill when it is going to be dirty again. [in an annoyed tone]
W: because the manager said so.

I was thinking deep in my heart why bother eating then because you are going to get hungry again even if you eat. I dint say it because I don want to quarrel with him, it’s not worth it.

After James was gone he finishes at 7pm. It’s left with Christ, Cameron and me.
Cameron has to start pre-close so I was on the line with Christ. Its torturing, to be honest I rather be on the line alone then having him to help me.

uni letter in mail

2008-01-20T23:19:00.000+09:00

Woke up this morning, feeling bored, walked around the house and when to collect the mail. A letter from ACU [Australian catholic university] they were offering me a position in their university, I was delighted at the same time vexed. Delighted because the uni of my second choice wanted me, vexed because I don’t really want to go to this university, UQ [University of Queensland] is more of my idea uni, the uni that I really wanted to go to. Also as soon as I know my result, I changed the choice of university by taking away the second nominated uni ACU on my list to QUT [Queensland University of Technology].

So many complications, need to call up QTAC and ask them why an I being referred to as an international student. If I am stated and known as an international student by all university, there’s no way I could afford the fees of $46800 for a 3 year course. $1300 a month... It’s frigging expansive, a rip off!! Humph.

baby born

2007-12-21T21:36:00.000+09:00

Ring Ring..

"hello?"

"are u sleeping?? where r u??"

"of coz i am sleeping, im at home. y?"

"ur sister is in the hospital now and im with her"

"wot?"

"dint u hear all the noises? the paramedics came!"

" u serious? coz.. i dint hear anything"

"i think ur sister is in labour now."

"omg. ok, i'll be there soon"

it was like 6.45 am in the morning, kiera called me after she reached the hospital.

connie was having stomach contraction so she was sented in to the hospital.

Quickly took a cab down to Royal Brisbane Hospital after a shower.

went into the labour room, she was sucking some kind of gas from a tube,

the gas is to help her... relieve a little?? maybe??

but according to connie the gas was useless it did nothing at all..

connie keep having contractions, pretty sure it hurts alot..

every contraction she seems to be in agony, she screams, she beg, she sweats in an air conditioned room. at one stage she even thought of giving up.

if she gave up, the baby would stuck there..

i saw a new life born, it was LIVE!!

its so amazing.. the head pops out a little, it was black.

i tot that the baby skin colour was black, like the father.

but after her whole head popped out, phew its not black, tat was only her hair colour. Lol..

she was kinda brownish jux like a malay..

after the baby is born, the placenta came out too..

normally pple throw out the placenta, but the nurse asked if we want to keep it or not.

the girls of coz dint want to. BUT, the daddy is like okie we'll keep it.

stupid nurse she said: some pple bury the placenta in dirt and plant a tree on it.

in some poor countries, they even cook the placenta with herbs and eat it.

EWW gross much??!! And because he lives in an apartment theres no garden, but because we lived in a house, he was thinking about planting a lemon tree in our backyard/ garden.. OMG.

and after the lemon tree grows lemon he intend to eat it.. eww, so we'll change to buying limes instead of lemon so that lemons wont get mixed up if they store it in the fridge.. hahahs

so she stayed in hospital for a good whole 3 days with a tv to accompany her..
i kept her company for the 1st whole day...^^

when she got back form the hospital,
she said she missed it,
im like Y??

coz, i missed the food they gave me... -.-
lol..

2007-12-19T21:04:00.000+09:00

maybe ur right, we dint change, our life did...
u r something to me, if u r nobody to me, i wont even care if there's a change.

result release le.
ranging from OP 1 to 25, i got a OP 14.
i got wat i needed and wanted.
but i expected better.
sigh if i dint miss 3weeks of school for the last term for the trip,
i could probably get a better OP.
oh well guess its fated..
at least i got wad i needed.
should feel contented.

nursing, bartender and air stewardess.
so going for nursing first.
i wanna get a cert for bartending.
someday one day, i shall get it..
hmm..

now waiting for the day to know which uni accepted me.
University of Queensland,.. u know u want me...(hahas)

Samaritan

2007-12-18T00:56:00.000+09:00

in my back yard playing with tess
isnt she adorable.

at the bus stop, and she came
sitting beside my foot at the bus stop ^^

something random happen today.. ^^
i wish i could keep the dog..

walking to the bus stop like always, sit on the bench and wait...
suddenly a dog ran out towards my direction from the pathway to the estate area..
she ran towards me, n to my suprise she stick to me, she sat beside my feet when i move she move..hahahss.. so cute.

knowing it was somebody's pet, i sat there with the dog waiting for someone to come n pick her up. but there wasn't anyone, and i don wan to leave her there alone. wad happen if it crosses the road n... hmmm..
so i decided to bring it to find its owner. and because the dog was sticking so close to me I've no trouble having her to follow me. i run she run i walk she walk beside me.. hahas.. so cute..^^

i stop and petted her after we ran through the pathway, den i realize there was a tag on her neck, the dog name was Tess and theres the owner number. so i called the hse no. no one picked up so i call the mobile no. and her owner picked up. she asked if i could put her in my backyard and she would come n pick Tess up. i'm like ok..

so i brought Tess into my back yard, we had a little fun. it was so adorable..
when i was about to leave, droplets started to fall. i don know how long will it take for her owner to come, n what if the rain gets too big? Tess will be drenched.. so i stayed with her, hoping tat the rain wont get any bigger.

after 15mins den the owner came. she offer to drive me to the bus stop, as i hopped into her car the rain got so big. phew..
she told me, Tess is afraid of storm and Tess is all alone at home, so she ran out to look for a companion to keep her company. Tess is a kind of dog tat is very affectionate, it would sit by your side n let u pet it all day.

and because of this incidence, i was late for work. i call up n told chris tat i will be late and he said it was alright. 5past 5, ezza call and ask if i know i am starting at 5, so i told him i called b4 tat i would be 10 to 15 mins late, he was so mad at christ for not telling him and he was like agrr tat fucking chris. hmm.. when i walk into the stall dave was like: u know u start at 5 right.
omg i was annoyed, pretty sure they need to communicate!! humph

close close close.. again.. wasnt tat bad..
tired le..
Zzz...

pub night

2007-12-16T18:01:00.000+09:00

went out last night to a gathering to say farewell to Portia who quited her job.
jade n Tina dint go becoz jasmine was going. (it was a long story y they dint like each other)
kuini drove me into the city, and were like the earliest.
Portia n Daniella were there long ago n was bumming around. went to brewhouse and den moved on to fat louise.

it was a boring night coz we went to pub n not club we have about 15 people but everyone jux scattered around, so i ended up playing a game of pool with Micheal, Jeremy was kinda drunk and he cant even aim properly at the ball.. man i laughed so much watching him play. he even try to teach Lauren how to play.. lol..Cassie came after, and she had a game of pool with Damon. she look so different when she is out from her uniform. stunning ^^

Corrina n Kirstin came. OMG @@
lol. pretty sure when they were walking towards our table, everyone jux stared at her boobs.
coz Corrina in short and is more than plum/ fleshy, OK, i shall stop rounding around, in short she is short and round. she has boobs tat an E size cup bra couldn't even fit everything in, its MASSIVE!!
and she wear a tube dress, a SHORT tube dress so when she bends over, the bum flashes, becoz her boobs was so big n the dress haven got much material to cover up both ends so when the dress manage to cover up her bum it flashes half of her boobs.. Eww.. no exaggeration here!!
she went to tattoo a 4leaf icon on her boobs and it was soo tiny. Whahahsss..

yeah.. it was really bored even kuini dint want to stay long. so shes like: do u wanna go now??
i was feeling tipsy n tired so i nodded and she drove me home.. Omg.. nv gonna go unless pple i like hanging out with like nick, julianna, jade and some others are going den i'll go..

waiting next year for daniel, thien and morgan to turn 18..

incidence at work

2007-12-15T01:15:00.000+09:00

i feel so happy these few days.

after knowing "him" my day seems to brighten up a fair bit. ^^

and i realize i begin to talk alot with customers.. haha..

as in like.. erm.. a big small talk.. we actually chatted..

oh man. coz i was feeling all so happy,

when i served the customer, i served with enthusiasms or a friendly service.

and my customers seems to like me... its a nice thing..

few days back, a customer came and ordered a coffee, after i gave it to him he was like " you are very beautiful". and tat was random..

another customer, he ordered coffee too so i ask if he needed any sugar his reply was: "you are sweet enough for me." and the customer standing beside him waiting for his food chuckled..

how embarrassing.
theres more...
theres this incidence that i will never forget i found it hailarious.
2 gay looking guys came up to my friend register,
looking bold, about 166-8m in height, below average size, dark coloured skin and a caucasian, wearing a black stretchy tight fitted singlets in silk and skinny leg jeans, and another friend of theirs cam to mine and ordered a mealwhen he was goin through his wallet for "gold", he found something. the 2 gay looking guy was like "give it to her, give it to her" so when he was about to pay guess wot?!!

he gave me whatever he found in his wallet and that his friends told him to give it to me.
he pass it to me ,
i took it,
to my suprise, it was a

FRIGGIN
CONDOM!!

and i dint know unill i had it in my hands.
so wad i did,
i throw it back into his Face,
bonus him a death stare and said: its not funny
it worry him a little n started apologising.

and deep i was laughing so was the customer standing beside who viewed the whole situitation..

such little incidence does add a little spice to work at times..^^

what a day

2007-12-15T00:59:00.000+09:00

worked from 12 to 12 today.. a big day..
my orginal shift is from 4 -9pm, but chelsee couldnt do her shift and asked me to do it.
so im like okie.. 2h to knock off, cameron wasnt feeling too good and asked if i wanna help him close. i dint wan to but because of the crap he gave everyone and so, most crew dislike him no one wanted to help him out.
i felt pity for him so i promised. but kylie dint really agree to it.
she wanted cameron to work his shift, coz ive been working since 12.
plus a crew cant work more than 10h a day.
but becoz its illegal if they don let cameron go home when he is unwell they hv no choice, but to let me do the close and let hime go home.

its friday night, everyone is out clubbing, city is packed with party people while i stay in the stall and work my ass out.
amazingly, we finished everything b4 12 on a well known known busy friday night.
while i was about to leave, nick looked at me and said:" winnie, thank you so much for doing the close for cameron and not let him close with me, thank you so much" and gave me a hug..

i was pretty much speechless, nothing else to say other than "its okie" with a smile.

my body feels like a robot today.
all i ate within the 12h was only a mini snack wrap.
i wasnt even hungry, only ate because i know i need the energy.
now sitting in my living room bloggin, i still don feel tired,
but only feeling sore in my limbs and the cuts on my finger..

closing is tough. never fail to complete closes without having any cuts on finger as memories.

a bad night home from work

2007-12-12T22:27:00.000+09:00

work today was agrr...
time passes so slow even though it was only a 4h shift.
maybe its becoz i am feeling lethargic n lazy to work, and couldn't control myself from not looking at the clock.
hahas.. i was yawning throughout the whole shift.

after work tot of catching 380 so tat i don hv to walk far away, but i kinda miss my bus so end up catching the 385 bus. it was raining, feel so nice, the cooling wind blew across my tired skin.
how i wish i was at home going to bed. such a nice weather.

after walking in the drizzling weather for bout 25mins or so, i saw a long tree branch/ stick in front of me, as i approach closer to it, i got the urge to step on it and was close to laying my foot on it until i thought i saw it moved, i jumped across it instead with shock and ran a little as i tot it was a snake.

after recalling my reaction to the "moving" stick, i chuckled abit at my stupidity..
feeling not happy about how the "moving" stick has actually scared the hell outta me i turn back and looked/ stared at tat stick.
to my holy molly surprise, tat was no stick but a snake!! EWWW (goosebumps)...
coz it move again, sliding across the pathway into the grass..
tat instance my goosebumps all stand n my body shivers..
walking into spider webs is bad enough already and now i nearly step on a snake and wads next??
a toad jump away from my foot?? (touch wood touch wood!!)

Omg, after seeing the snake I'm really scare n worry about walking the shortcut full of grass patches with no street light. cant even see wads coming..
was freaking out badly.. so i jumped and ran and jump and run until i reach the end of the short cut leading to the road which is free from grasses. phew..

pace up and got home in no time.

Home Sweet Home...

noone to be there for me

2007-12-12T20:53:00.000+09:00

pass few nights hv been sleepin late..
starting to feel sick le..
he's sick le. down with a flu.
poor boy. i pray and hope that he get better soon..
thanks for staying up late with me.
i really enjoyed ur company.
sometimes i really hope that there will be someone who i really like to chat with to be online 24/7 so that when i go online he will always be there for me..
but tats jux a wishful thinking..
be there 24/7 for me!! hahas..
i shall jux keep dreaming.

few days back, my nick in msn said:
"its so hard to find someone comfortable to talk to at the same time listen and care".
connie den said: u can talk to me ma.
thank u. but...
sometimes when i wan to talk to u, u will be on the com thus ignoring me or get irritated.
or u will scold me for what i said. or worst pick a fight.
if u realize, i don really like to quarrel, everytime when u raise ur voice at me,
and start arguing with me i would always go: "hmm" and walk away, to my room and not come out to chat anymore.
haix.

now tat xiao zhu hv a bf,
she seems really busy, occupied.
i tried calling her but feels like theres nothing much to talk about le.
The close relationship we once had seems to drift futher apart le.
plus if i tok to her its always me talking...

maybe i am too picky le ba.
oh well..
perhaps something is best to keep to myself.
bottle all things up.
and swallow down.

graduation day

2007-12-09T23:43:00.000+09:00

finally the day of winnie graduating has come.. ^^
weeks b4, i asked daddy if he is coming to my graduation day but he's like.. "ask me again when its near"

so, i did.. but hes like he cant go and have to work.. fair enough..
he burnt his hand with hot oil..
went to the doc, doc gave him 3 weeks leave..

2days b4 graduation i ask him if he was coming. and he say he had to work..
coz his leave that doc gave has finish..
i was den thinking the ceremony starts at 7 and finish at 9..
he could make it if he is working in the afternoon..

formal day came..
went to sch b4 7.
so nervous.. so many people..
almost everyone parents and some relative was there..
i wish my dady was there too...
i went up for my cert..
and guess wad miss hamilton was SEARCHING for my cert!! wot the..
den she finally gave me one which i tot it was mine..
so i went back to my seat, open the cert book..
it was someone else!! i was like wot the..
after the whole thing she swopped it back for me..

we walked around. took some pic...
..

went home..
and guess wad..
i saw my dad at home...
and he dint hv to go to work...

haix...
i wish mommy was here.
maybe she would attend...

to me its something big.
itis a big accomplishment for me.
coz i was the first who actually graduated..

oh well.. it's already over..
bahh..

carrie birthday

2007-12-09T22:49:00.000+09:00

15 nov was carrie b'day..
carrie parents came over to celebrate her bday and attent her graduation..
her dad looked so young and so is her mom..
they r such a lovely couple..
her family is jux so nice..
feel so warm too..
carrie parents gave carrie's hosemom a gucci bag as present.. how generous..
so when we hopped onto the car heading to the thai restuarant for dinner, her hosemom was showing it off to us.. when her friend called her, the first thing she said is "guess wad? someone gave me a gucci bag as present" so me n jihee looked at each ther and laughed.. lol..

carrie cry when she read what me and jihee wrote to her... its was the tears of touch..

so fast another year has come..
and carrie got old..
hahahs..
=X

speech night

2007-10-31T22:03:00.000+09:00

Tonight is speech night.
i have to attend with no choice.
because i want my distinction award for chinese.
and YES!! i got it back this time round!! dono which KU KU bird took it away from me last year..
anyway it was a whole 2.5h of boredom.
i nearly fell asleep on the speeches...
at the end, because it was our last year, we get to hole a candle and walk down from the side to the middle of the hall.. hehe...

my dad went to look for a resturant with a friend...
so he dint came...

hmm..
anyway it's jux a piece of cert..
nothing much too important...

sleepy tml still got school..
goin to bed now..
nightzz

whinning about school stuff

2007-10-31T21:54:00.000+09:00

past few days was crashin my assignment, and guess wad? i manage to complete my english assignment on time, my 2 chinese assignment before due.
so wad's next'? my biology foilo is due on monday. i really wan to complete it and get a credit for it. hospitality function on wednesday, hope i cook well for my two specially invited friends, grr haven finish the written assignment for hospitality! have to =>justified justified!!! english still have one more assignment, comfirm fail haven even start readin the novel... tell me how to pass lidat?? maths need to practice... haix...

got a Very High Achivement for chinese
a High Achivement for multistrand science
Sound Achivement for english and biology
and the worst=> limited achivement for maths B..

damn math B.. humph..
pull my score down...

LEAVE ME ALONE!!

2007-10-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel that she is trying to get sympathy from me, but y?
she always tells me negative stuff about her.
but what can i do. it really doesn't feel good, hearing so many negative stuff.
plus it's always about the same thing.
sometimes it's obvious that wad she said has been exaggerated.
i'll be more that happy to be a listening ear, but pls don treat me like a dumb ass..

know what?
Jux Shut up..
I really cant stand anymore..
i have enough things to vex at this very moment already.
it's probably best that you leave me alone for the time being.

LEAVE ME ALONE!!

busy busy busy

2007-10-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

it was spring cleaning yesterday, me n daddy cleaned the whole house, it's more of him cleaning thou.. hehe.. now my house it's like spanking clean.. aww.. feel so good..

school today, first day for term 4, i got alot of present from the teacher.. it was really alot.. and they are all due within 2 weeks.. yay?? man i feel like dyin now.. deep breath, i know i can do it.
so far i got 2 english, hospitality, 2 chinese, biology.
it's really so many to do so little time..

hang on winnie!!

movie times

2007-10-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

This time back in spore, i meet a couple new friends .. hahas.. funny they r so friendly n the time we spent together, all we did was talk and talk as if we knew each other for years.. meet ben up twice for supper, we went to lao ba sa eat stingray, lala, and satays, yumm.. he's such a gentlemen he knew that i liked stingrays n he ordered a large one, lala too, den 15 satays.. man tat's alot for supper. after supper it's still kinda early so we went to cine leisure n watched a movie by the name of "se jie." i swear i'll never watch tat[ that kind of] movie ever again eventhough my idol is in the movie, throughout the movie i doze off dozen of times. imagine tat, an energetic person dozin off while watchin a movie? tat movie was so bad.. so bored. nothing interesting. no action nothin.. -.-
den the second time we meet we went to watch resident evil.. movie was really good except for the ending, no ending.. pretty sure theres another movie coming up.

went to watch "shoot them up" and "the brave one" with kelvin. shoot them up was too computerise le, so fake, hw is it possible for one to be perfectly fine when hundreds of pple were after him with a gun?! but 'the brave one' storyline was good, kinda sad in the begining but at least this movie feels more realistic compare to the other one.

... fun times...

singapore airline

2007-10-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

now singapore airlines is cutting down the weight of ur lagguage.
so annoying lor, last time can bring 35kg, den 30 now lehx, only 25kg.
what the fish lor, big pple like me have bigger size clothes, bigger size clothes naturally weights more than a small size one lor. more material ma..
now so scare lagguage over weight den have to re pack openly so embarrass lor, den wanna buy thing oso have to contemplate. sianx.

blog after the trip to spore. ^^

2007-10-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

it's been a long long long time since i last blog..

but now, i'll try to blog every now and then..

the last 2 weeks tat i have spent in singapore has been splendiful.. i've make use the best of it for the whole week, but still there's alot of stuff tat i've longed to do it, unfortunately it din seems to happen..

it's wasnt as joyable as i tot it would be, somehow everything din seems to fall in place as it should be. it's the timing; wrong timing back. she gotta work, got a bf. her off day is no longer for me alone anymore. really so not use to it. coz we use to ton outside overnight, go to the movies at night at cine leisure, eat ice cream, stingray, hehe and many many things.. ahh those memories. but now she can only spent day wid me n night with her bf. hmm.. feel kinda empty, i'll get over it eventually. tat's pretty much the downside... i should probably be more understanding but it's the sudden change tat i couldn't adapt to. anyway someone once told me it's bf/ gf tat they might spent the rest of his/her life with and not friends hence placing the significant other first is understandable. but when come to think of it, it's friend who is always there for u, and is friend who have been through tough waves with u all these years, so how? who to put first now?

bah, everyone handles matters differently cant expect one to be the same like me otherwise this world is gonna be like a photocopy machine where everyone is the exact same. hahas

but still friends to me r more important than bf, without them i wont be who i am today, their presence n company is wad i would long for.

back to bloging

2007-07-29T07:36:00.000+08:00

hey.. so long never blog le..
sisters have been hugging on to the computer watching movies play monopoly..
how sad..
so now i'm at mine friend i'm bloggin a post =)
i will update stuff about me soon..
these 2mth is good for me..
been happy..

yeah and to lionel= congrats to finding a new gf.. ur 'Dream girl' =)
may u and her have a lasting relationship.. =)
as for me, i've found a partner too.. but somehow we wont last forever but will last long..
and i'm happy at this stage.. couldn't ask for more...

this wont be a long post..
so my last words are: Xiao ZHu.. i misses u. heehee...

my home..part 1

2007-05-17T10:47:00.000+08:00

introducing my home... today's blog i'll show you some picture of my house look like...

this is taken from the outside...

this is how the neighbourhood look like, vewing from my house.. very little street light, some street light the bulb burst, so it's really dark at night..
what you see here is the kitchen and the laundry room.. there's a toliet in the laundry room it's not open toilet, there's another door in there of coz...and the stairs to the bedrooms....
and this is the living room... it's a little messy thou.. the tv is behind the wall on the right...cant see..
this is the so call garden... the little pots r my experiment..
and this is actually also part of the garden, but it's has been made into an area for drying clothes.. coz we don use bamboos like how we did in spore.. here we use clips...
this is all for now. haven yet show the garage and bedrooms.. ^^...

in the next post, i will show pictures i took in exploring the garden, heehee...

some random photo...

2007-05-15T17:43:00.000+08:00

after i reach home... sweating like nobody business..
feel so warmm.....
like my contact colour??
this is how the tree is now.. it's leaves are falling... the trunk is growing blue leaves...

took some photo on my way home today...

the long long road that i have to walk to reach home..
very act cute.. heehee.. i know... lalalala...

wad a day...

2007-05-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

cant sleep well last night.. kept thing about stuff.. only until 5+ den I'm able to sleep, and woke up at 7.20am..
aha.. i wore the grey colour contact lens today, it seems to be more obvious compare to the amethyst colour one..Cox when in Chinese class, Alex saw me he was exclaimed tat my eye colour was different n reckon it was really cool ..den everyone started to look over and star at my eye.. in such situation, i really wished for a hole, so that i could hide in it... so pai sei lo.. my friend told him tat i went for an eye surgery and guess what! he believed..lol.. they don seems to know that there is such a thing call contact lens.. -.-"...

went for detention today, finally.. din wanna go at all but the consequences of not going is i will get suspended Cox I've got warn n being reminded umpteen time, and it would be consider as defying orders.. tat scum Brennan.. Grrr.. got 1 more outstanding detention for some shitty reason, i'm not going until he come to me again.. Gezz Wat a pest!!

Yesterday i got 2 QCST exam practice, after the first one, Carrie n i went to the library trying to print out the English draft den.. the fuc*ing Librarian went all nutty and ask wad r we doing here in the library rudely, consider adding 'hey hey hey' in front of the sentence, so i thought the library is close but it's not so i told her tat i need to print out stuff 0.o giving her tat kind of face like, Duh... den she said: don u have class now? I'm like wad class?? we have QCST exam going on today... so have it finish? think you should go to Ur class now.. It's QCST exam practice TODAY and we have no class!! she went embarrasses and say the computers are full, well i can see that and before she finish her sentence i pulled Carrie along and walked off..
Bloody Bitch if someone pissed you off it's Ur problem don release Ur Freaking anger at Us..
those librarians in my shitty school talk more than they work, always ask those kids in the library to keep quiet and when they themselves talk, GOSH it's like u are in a market... not only that they don even know how to operate the programs in the computer e.g draw a graph in excel.. -.-" unbelievable man!! they even eat in the library.. wad is that??
what is the use of putting up those rules and not abide by it.. what more she is a librarian she should knew it better..

the bruise i got the other time on my shin has spread real big, half the size of Ur Palm.. and it hurt T.T(*sob*).. burn my pinkie the other day while working, the scar look as if it's slid by a pen knife instead..
ahh.. the third time i was asked y i am not a crew trainer... xanthe mention it again,
Kate the manager agreed she reckon i have the potential to be one she asked if i wanted to before and this time she wants me to take the test to be a crew trainer.. even the manager from other stall, jasmine who is just filling up shifts for manger in our stall thinks i am ready for it, she over heard the conversation between me, Kate and xanthe den she said :.. yes, although i only worked with you twice but i think you would be a good trainer...
i want to be too, but it's confidence i lacked in.. i dono.. lets see again..

baked muffins in hospitality class today, they came out looking so Delicious.. hahahs... but, it's for Open Day on Sunday.. waiting for Sunday so i can squeeze colourful icing sugar on it.. heehee...

Tomorrow NO school.. Yippee Yeah!!! it's study holiday.. hahass.. I'm so gonna sleep in..
this week is gonna be interesting... Hopefully... it's a busy week too...

2007-05-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

tree5
tree 6
tree7

my unfinish display in one of my book shelf^^
tree 1
tree 2
tree 3
tree 4

Muz be wondering what is all the picture of tree about ba.. hahahs.. this is a magic tree.. this tree start growing in within 1 hour and finish growing in 6 hours.. it fascinating... the pictures got a little screw up.. however there's still no. indicating which comes first according to the blooming of the whole cute little tree..

hahas.. it's not a big tree it's mini.. about the length of ur palm.. it is not touchable.. coz, when u touch the leaves of it, it would melt jux like snow vanishing in to thin air..not actually it's will turn liquid on ur hand when u touch it..

it's chemical reaction tat made this plant grow.. all i did was placing the cardboard trunk of tree on to the plate to hold it still and pour the packet of liquid provided in the package and wait for it to grow.. so amazing.. hahhas..wonder how long can it last there for... coz it's so vulnerable...

i blow it in the begining when it start to grow and to my suprise a bunch of greenish leaves drop off.. i was on the phone wid xiao zhu den.. couldn't stop laughing.. hahha.s...

how i misses xiao zhu.. we broke the record i think.. chatted like for 3.5 hour..

my mobile when flat after chatting nearly 3h with her... hahahs...

muack.. i'll miss u lots lots...

^.^... will call u again soon...

some random photo

2007-05-13T20:52:00.000+08:00

lauren, kuni me n xanthe the clown!!
me n luke
kuni me n xanthe
i look red... hahahs....

Corina's party

2007-05-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

it's Corina's party..
woo.. din know what to get her, so got her a bottle of wine in the end...
meet jasmine, xanthe and the driver kuni ^^ at Myer 2...
kuni drove us to Corina's Portia was actually coming with us but she end up taking a ride from shazz..
kuni's a way 'cool' driver, not even 18 and already got the driving license and a car jux recently.. kuni drives crazily and that explains why.. hahahs.. her driving was fast and smooth not bumpy..awesome..

so crowded.. gosh.. there's so many to see than to do.. hahahs..
Corina's started us with a shot of cowboy i think.... it's good...
juz got there not long after and everyone started making out.. as for me and kuni, we sat at the couch like a lesbian couple chatting wit a gay couple and bitching.. whahahss...
serious we did..
the whole night i was with kuni, she looked after me she cant drink nor dance coz she is driving and her calve muscle tore and it's healing st the moment, when i drink she asked if i ate so tat i wont feel sick later.. but i haven ate anything and i don feel like eating...
i brought a 6 pack of thooties extra Dry and after finishing it, i got another 4 pack of vodka cruiser guava flavour yum..
i dint finish all....^^ as for how many bottle i drink, it's for me to know for u to find out.. i din get drunk neither jux tipsy..

yeah got to know this new guy call THEO reckon his name is cool.. he's very friendly.. but din expect him to be a erm... BIO.. hahhas... and becox me n kuni was so close tat night he came and ask me this when kuni was realizing: are u straight? u like her? i laughed and told him: i dono if i'm a bio but i like her.. i probably made him have the idea tat i was a bio..lol.. i don care.. tat night kuni have her legs laid on my, she sat on me, tickle my knee.. and when xanthe came over putting her arms around me, kuni gave her the look and said r u trying to steal my bitch?
whahahs... we r jux jokin around. but we reali looked like les.. what's more xanthe is a bio.. lol...

Jeff was so high.. he went all crazy, came hugging me n kuni den he said: next time when work with him, or when we see him have to tell him: i love you Jeff so he could say i love you too and den we can say i know it.. he reckons tats sexy..after hearing what he say, i laugh my ass out.. his pattern was OMG!! hilarious..
he dance like nobody business. but one thing luckily he's hot and cute otherwise he really look like a MOLESTER!!! lol.. realize when he dance wid the girls he touch them boobs and bum.. -.- hahahs..

shazz got really wasted.. drank non- stop.. opening cans after cans... and b4 she left for the pub, she came hugging me and shower me lots of kisses at once..!! on my CHEEK not LIPS!! hahahs..

Portia, Luke, Danielle, Shazz, etc continue their party down the pub, i din went along coz kuni is under 18 so i'm accompanying kuni.. we were watching tv, den there came corina's dad he inserted some DVD wanting us to watch.. -.- it's was boring.. and he talked non-stop..
feeling tipsy and having a headache i really feel like going to bed, so did kuni.. so we went to bed at about 2+ slept on a same bed..
this morning we woke up together.. den started cracking jokes.. she was surprise tat whoever she thought was a virgin has show their faces tat they r not..she tot dani was one, but tat night when me and kuni was on the couch, dani and another guy was on the couch behind us using a very large piece of blanket to cover themselves, weird noise came out.. so me n kuni went stunt and started giggling... coz we r thinking really YY!!! lol..

kuni drove me home.. on the way we stopped somewhere and had pies for breakie.. it's was a long ride home.. she really drive madly.. i cant stop laughing at the way she drives.. she is so entertaining..

i really like kuni.. she is soo nice to be with, i feel so comfortable wid her.. jux like i am with xiao zhu and some other close friend...

-.- it's already over!!

2007-05-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

last night receive his msg again (coz i sent him one too) heehee.. dono Y, I'm suppose to get over him but when i receive his msg i was so over the moon and when i read it, it seem like I'm falling in love with someone deeply again..
aww... what should i do??? even though i enjoy the feeling coz i feel so loved.. but when it comes to reality i know its impossible.. me n him= no no!!! so why is the feeling still occuring???

when me and him together, i told crayon... he said it was honeymoon...we argue over it coz i don agree hahhass... but true enough it was..
now i told him we r over, he was surprise.. he ask me not to think so much le.. coz in the beginning of a relationship its always sweet sweet de...
xiao zhu too.. she said to late nature take it course....
as for Jack.. he consoled me ask me not to be sad...when i should be the one...
coz jack's grandma pass away le... "sorry to hear that"...

Friends are really important.. if not for them that night when my fairy tale end miserably, i might end up really depress.. when i need them they were there awwww... really love you guys... miss you guys sooo much too. thanks for being there when i need someone...

been thinking alot...those flashing memories.. haix..
well i am still able to get to slp thou.. simply with juz a cup of screwdriver (mixture of vodka and orange juice) and 2 pills.. tat 1 liter of vodka, finally nearly finish le..

school tomorrow... -.-"" haizz..

furniture arrive

2007-05-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

Furniture i brought came yesterday a study table, 2 student comfy chair and a book shelf, brought a study table for shanie too.. i spent a month pay on it, but it's all worth it coz it's what i wan.. so i dint went to school stayed at home waiting for it to come anxiously...
it came den the delivery man was nice to help me carry all the way to the second floor.. din realize it was heavy until i carry it, imagine if i have to climb 15 stairs, unlucky enough i might even roll all the way down the stairs. hahhas..
b4 the handy man leave i offer him a pack of popper in a way of thanking him and he gave a very very pleasant comment which are music to my ears on my cooking he said: "wow! dinner smells really nice.." i was over the moon =).. enough to cheer me up for a day..
however things din go on very well when come to assembling the furniture...
first when assembling the chair, i accidentally pinch the flesh of my thumb when trying to fix the wheel onto the chair..it's not tat bad it dint bleed den when come to the book shelf...
i accidentally step onto the corner lightly, and its corner was freaking sharp it cut my heel of coz it bleed now.. den more and more cuts from the book shelf... i manage to cut both my heels my thigh and get 1 big bruise from it..
curious?? when lifting it up with shanie, we din really get it right, coz the book shelf shape is diagonal not rectangle.. ^^ so shanie let it go b4 i did and it happen to land HARD on my shin.. and guess what immediately it become a hump!! a HUMP!! can u imagine how hard it land on my shin now?? den when it come to the table, woo Lucky no cuts or bruise.. but my hands really went weak from all those screwing... screw screw and more screwing..

after all the hard work, gazing into my room the feeling of contend was there..
my room has all the basic stuff i need and want, although the shelf wasnt glass made but still good.. ^.* i'm happy...

next thing i am getting for my room is a BED FRaMe!! slowly wait....

recieve his msg last night was so suprise, was waiting for his msg tot it would nv happen.. cant reali get to slp until i saw his msg, i think i have the sweetest dream ever... i still cant get over him i guess...

5 may 2007 it ended

2007-05-06T15:59:00.001+08:00

Started at 5 Feb 2007, ended 5 may 2007...
it all ended... me and him became history.

ytd at work, i was only slightly quiet then usual, kuni spot tat..
she said i looked depressed hence, asked if i had some problem and if i wanted to talk about it..
but i choose not to at that moment..
it's was reali nice of her to be so concern about me, she den gave me a hug..
and i really appreciate tat... she din wan me to feel depressed, coz she is worried tat i might end up like one of her friend who passed away at the beginning of the year; committing suicide..

i probably wont.. neither will i use a pen knife to slid my wrist to ease the pain in the heart like i use to do in the past.. i reckon it's silly and immature, once i told jing off for cutting her wrist becoz of a guy, and if i do it now, how will she think of me?
so the worst thing tat i would do, is to drink until im drunk adding on a couple pills tat will make me go to bed.. and tat is all...i will be fine...

in the middle of the night, he texted me leaving me a choice tat is not a choice..
he wanted me to be sis with his ex (who is now his gf) if i still want him..
tat is out of the question!!.. so i rather back off.. and give them my blessing even thou i do not wan to!
coz first: his ex could supply him cash to start his business.
and i cant, i'm jux a student wad do u expect?
second: his ex could satisfied him, agree to have a sis.
but not me, im selfish i do not like to share my BF with another women!
third: im not close to him in distance nor age.. but not his ex.
so is tat sufficient reason for me to leave him?

i really hate to prove my hypothesis about guys are right that:
all guys are the same jerk, their words are always louder than action, and they give empty promises...
he really has his way, he said he wont leave me umpteen times, yeah he din leave me he juz simply left me a choice, knowing the outcome and made me leave him.
what else can i say?! all i can do now is cry and try to get over him as quickly as possible...

To commit in a relationship, the best is to know the opposite party long enough first..
otherwise, my advice: play along and never get too serious..
ever if they say to married him when being together for barely less than a year, best to treat it as bullshit, coz they r words that do not mean anything to him..

After all this, i den realize i was being an idiot an imbecile.. maybe too naive..like always..
To trust a person too much and too easily, end up hurting myself most..
Hahas..if i were to be a stranger watching this whole thing, i would be laughing at my own silly behavior..

But still... i would like to thank him for being part of my life..
happy memories tat we have will always be remembered..
As for the miserable feelings im having now cant blame him but myself...
im clearly aware that every good thing will come to an end but i've choose to invlove myself in, So it's a choice tat i've made by mistake..

This world is really materialistic. Now i believe tat money can buy love.
Fuck this world, i'm gonna be rich one day.. we'll see...

And for now, my aim: To study well, work and save money, and also train tummy for better looking figure... ^.^...

winnie will be postitive... coz winnie is still young and have a life to go on..

=> thanks kang soon for being there giving advice n hearing me out ytd night during the worst time of mine...^.^

5 may 2007 it ended

2007-05-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

Started at 5 Feb 2007, ended 5 may 2007...
it all ended... me and him became history.

ytd at work, i was only slightly quiet then usual, kuni spot tat..
she said i looked depressed hence, asked if i had some problem and if i wanted to talk about it..
but i choose not to at that moment..
it's was reali nice of her to be so concern about me, she den gave me a hug..
and i really appreciate tat... she din wan me to feel depressed, coz she is worried tat i might end up like one of her friend who passed away at the beginning of the year; committing suicide..

i probably wont.. neither will i use a pen knife to slid my wrist to ease the pain in the heart like i use to do in the past.. i reckon it's silly and immature, once i told jing off for cutting her wrist becoz of a guy, and if i do it now, how will she think of me?
so the worst thing tat i would do, is to drink until im drunk adding on a couple pills tat will make me go to bed.. and tat is all...i will be fine...

in the middle of the night, he texted me leaving me a choice tat is not a choice..
he wanted me to be sis with his ex (who is now his gf) if i still want him..
tat is out of the question!!.. so i rather back off.. and give them my blessing even thou i do not wan to!
coz first: his ex could supply him cash to start his business.
and i cant, i'm jux a student wad do u expect?
second: his ex could satisfied him, agree to have a sis.
but not me, im selfish i do not like to share my BF with another women!
third: im not close to him in distance nor age.. but not his ex.
so is tat sufficient reason for me to leave him?

i really hate to prove my hypothesis about guys are right that:
all guys are the same jerk, their words are always louder than action, and they give empty promises...
he really has his way, he said he wont leave me umpteen times, yeah he din leave me he juz simply left me a choice, knowing the outcome and made me leave him.
what else can i say?! all i can do now is cry and try to get over him as quickly as possible...

To commit in a relationship, the best is to know the opposite party long enough first..
otherwise, my advice: play along and never get too serious..
ever if they say to married him when being together for barely less than a year, best to treat it as bullshit, coz they r words that do not mean anything to him..

After all this, i den realize i was being an idiot an imbecile.. maybe too naive..like always..
To trust a person too much and too easily, end up hurting myself most..
Hahas..if i were to be a stranger watching this whole thing, i would be laughing at my own silly behavior..

But still... i would like to thank him for being part of my life..
happy memories tat we have will always be remembered..
As for the miserable feelings im having now cant blame him but myself...
im clearly aware that every good thing will come to an end but i've choose to invlove myself in, So it's a choice tat i've made by mistake..

This world is really materialistic. Now i believe tat money can buy love.
Fuck this world, i'm gonna be rich one day.. we'll see...

And for now, my aim: To study well, work and save money, and also train tummy for better looking figure... ^.^...

winnie will be postitive... coz winnie is still young and have a life to go on..

=> thanks kang soon for giving advice n hearing me out ytd night during the worst time of mine...^.^

trust

2007-05-05T09:43:00.000+08:00

don ever misuse my trust....And take my trust for granted..

Am i being naive to actually trust someone totally? someone who i hardly understand?

is it really tat tough to be honest to someone?

love life sux...

2007-05-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

haven been bloggin since last month and if anyone wonder where did i disappear to,
i did not.. jux been busy moving house, and trying to settle down, because we moved, there's no internet connection and till recently den it's connected...
so i'm back to bloggin again..

at the end of last month, it's been pretty shit for me..

during hospitality cooking steak, the freaking oil went flying on to my wrist,
tot it's was alright coz don feel hot or pain at that moment, but who knows after awhile,
it sting and turned red, now it's a scar..

things haven been going on well between me n him...
now is 1:37am.
it's our 3rd mth anniversary...
the last msg i sent to him was 10:29pm my time
and untill now he haven reply my msg..
guess tat's it den...
my love life sux...

finish work at 10pm, reach home at 12:14...
miss my bus, got to wait 1h,
get off the bus, there's this guy who drop off at the same stop wid me...
and suprisingly, we walked the same way,
and to know, he actually stay near my house...
wat an coincidence...
during tat 20min of journey to home is nt lonely and creepy today..
thanks to him... ^.^

well feeling reali tired now..
so i'm gonna end here and go to bed le...
wish winnie sweet dreams ba..
nitez..

last day

2007-04-02T11:36:00.000+08:00

me and him
^.^
ben, zhu, ferlicia, KS

candid yo.. zhu zhu so ke ai.. lol

Last day.. haix..

went to bugis to do my last shopping..

reach the airport at about 7 plus, tot i was late but..

they were even later.. hahahs.. sky reached on time..

opss.. let him wait le.. lol..

tot of having a meal at swensen, somehow it's so packed so back to the same old place; burger king..half way through, have to check in first, so sky accompanied me.. waited and waited, finally..

lionel said he would come. but sms him no reply, untill some time den he say he's still working and might not make it.. so, yeah a little upset..

while checkin in, suddenly shanie say 'eh lionel lehx" i turned my head and he was there.. lol..

lie to me.. kao!!

went out to smoke, sky and him.. he din't want to join the rest coz he say he was shy... mm. O.0.. lol.. we took a couple pic together..

In the end.. we sat down at burger king together, brought our food and chomp.. chomp...chomp...all the way.. mmm... ^^

soo good mushroom swiss.. aww... hahahs..

my phone rang, it was thim.. he said he's there too.. mmm.( tot he said he wasn coming, coz... nvm.. keke)so he asked me to walk out away from my friends, coz he's shy.. dots..

and i did.. he gave me something.. a hug n he went off.. mommy know he's here..

ask where is he after he's gone, so i said he went off..

and u know what mommy did??

he called thim and tick him off..even ask him to come back.. said my friends can sit together even they don know each other and why cant u..

dono is mommy helping me or wad!! i din ask him to stay becoz i don wan to and mommy did..

said he could walk back wit her after.. haix..

fine fine...

i told mommy tat i don like thim, wanted to break up but mommy said since i am leaving so there's no point, true but.. wah lao!!

because he's there the whole environment feels awkward and uneasy..

lionel was gone after i'm back, so i went out and look for him, he's smoking again.. den i went back in..

Finally time to go.. the sad moment is here again.. haix..

huggies everyone..

especially zhu, the specially important person of my life...din want to let go..

hugging her was so nice..^^

hugged lionel, a short hug, a pity aye..

Hugged mommy den went in le..

waiting for the arrival of the next summer vacation..

Another year just passed by... how swift is tat..

Time never stop for anyone..

Everyday, everyone is rushing for time..

24 hour a day. it never seem enough.

There's just too much work to do,

tat is why tomorrow exist.

Exist for us to finish the unfinish work..

3rd date with lionel

2007-03-30T19:16:00.000+08:00

Day b4 i flew off, so many things to do and buy...
been wanting the sumsung K5, 1st mp3 player with inbuild speaker..
but i've spent most of my pay on a phone instead so.. too bad
Tat day xiao zhu accompany me to view the watches tat i'm crazy about..
really love those watches where the inside of it is exposed, so u could actually see how it is functioning..and i don even know why i get so fascinated about the way it moves..
gosh, they really make me crazy for it, but unfortunately such design is mainly only available under the guys section.. such design for girls watches are so rare, even if there is, it only expose partially, bout less than 1/4 is shown.. they don come cheap too.. =(
well, guess life is like dat, in a materialistic world; temptation is everywhere...
so we hang around for a little, got some papa puffs, yum, tot of getting some for 'them' but sold out le so, got the other kind instead, den zhuzhu brought her and his dinner? supper?heehee.. She went off to work, and i'm meeting lionel..

thanks for accompanying me tat day, reali tot of sending u to work first de, but.. was already late n thers's no taxi in sight..

under-tunnel?? hell, i din even know there was a tunnel there somewhere, felt like a noob now to mention. walk here and there, everywhere, sweating like no body business den reach the place.. dono where.. -.-"
walked to the first taxi stand, so many people. Second taxi stand, so many people too.
So to shun away from the Q, the man know what to do. Which is to book a cab. so we sat there waiting while others are standing there waiting patiently
we went to somewhere not so many pple, ordered Mac delivery.. ate, chat...ahem..what u expect..*(but don imagine too far)...

He send me home ^.^.. huggies..^^and
daddy saw him.. hahahs..

Packed my luggage..
And that's how the day end..

2nd date with lionel

2007-03-03T19:24:00.000+09:00

went down to simlim to visit Foon E-ma in the early afternoon, she looked weak compare to b4 because of lung cancer, her cancer was brought upon by taking in too much 2nd hand smoke.. poor thing, den she started to tell us tales about Onn E-ma.. when we are leaving soon, shanie mention about the pouch tat is hanging on to her, den she showed us the ball containing the substance 'kimo' which has a tube attached to it and the other end of the tube is inserted into somewhere under her right shoudler blade and ended at somewhere under her left shoulder blade.. her fingers no longer have nails the nails has melted, because of the chemical reaction.. felt so sad seeing her in this state.. so painful..

after visiting her, went to eat with mumy n shanie...
ordered a plate of chicken rice n chicken liver, fishball noodles, wanton soup n char siew noodles, and prawn noodles, and also a bowl of beancurd.. yum.. 3 pple eat so much.. lol.. coz feel like eating everything.. after eating when shop shop.. shanie wanted to get a pair of jeans n stuff.. from bugis shop to chinatown..

meet lionel at his workin place i went off at 8:30 tried ti hail a cab at china town.. Oh My God.. dono wad happen tat day, so many people waiting for cab and so many cab unavailable... waited and waited... i was late in the end.. because there wasn any taxi in sight at all, so i gave him a call.. den finally it came.. felt like dying..

it was 9 plus when i reach, worried tat he might be bored waiting even ask the taxi to drive faster.. but den he was playing cards with them, gambling.. so din felt tat bad.. keke..
after waiting for him to finish his game, we went to somewhere coz he need to get stuff, den me and the taxi driver waited and waited... it's like ages, the taxi driver was making noise, kept sighing.. so irritating.. Finally he appear with a smoke on his hand.. -.-...

den we went to east coast park.. whahahs.. jux knew he was bringing me to somewhere like a beach place becoz he asked me to wear something else instead of shoe ma.. lol.. aint i smart.. lol..

we walked, i was coughing and he's really so sweet, we went to 7 eleven i jux tot of getting a bottle of water, but he got me a bottle of 'golden flower' drink and a box of strepsills.. ain't he caring.. awww...my heart really melted becoz of him.. and wad he did for me.. so thoughtful..

went to the yellow tower, sat down.. he told me story about he and his ex gf whom he love deeply.. den realize tat he is really a very romantic guy full of suprises... aww~
we stood up enjoy the sound of the rushing sea, and the smoothing breeze tat blew along... the devil came along, it made us hug, and because of the enviroment it was really impossible tat we not kiss... lol...

it was late and he got to work tomorrow so he sended me home..

when i reach home, everything seems really like a dream, felt like some drama...
BECAUSE who on earth tat u Just know be so Concern about you, treat u so Nice, give u suprises, sent u home first den go home when the taxi fare is charging at midnight rate, staying up late wid u when he goto go and work the next day lehz??..
Answer me. is tat what u often see on drama??

i'm falling in love.. am i??

1st date with lionel

2007-02-26T23:50:00.000+09:00

7 feb, went to my grandmom house..
den at night was actually going to meet kelvin for a movie de.. but who knows he was feeling unwell last minute.. he smsed me and apologise.. well felt kinda disappointed coz have been looking forward to this day..
since the date at night is cancelled so i'm so free.. and i really wanna watch the movie.. but no one to accompany me.. so too bad..
feeling sooo bored just den lionel smsed me.. felt happy tat instance coz at least i've got someone to accompany le..
den chatted and chatted, told him i feel like going for a movie.. den he say i am trying to date him.. hahahs... oh well i wouldn't deny it.. hahahs..
so end up meeting him.. he was afraid tat i would be late so he kept calling.. mmm..
damn it was difficult to hail a cab at tat time..

finally got one.. den went down.. the driver pass by somewhere tat is infested with indians... and i thought simlim was located somewhere there.. because seriously i do not know how to go to simlim!! never been there.. sound kuku i know..but luckly it's not there otherwise i will ask the driver to sent me back to tampines.. hahahs.. den reach le the driver drop me off at the bus stop stand.. felt pressure when i alight everyone was starring at me.. scary...
den quick quick go look for lionel.. really felt inscure walking alone at night in a place which i've never been to and the worst thing is tat the building was so quiet and a few indian guys appear.. they really freak me out.. den there is this indian guy who tried to approach me, kao dash to the washroom immediately.. Eww..
den quickly walk around and try my luck to look for the shop where lionel is working in..
i spot some shop but wasn't sure but there was a feeling tat says lionel was in tat shop so i took a peep and true enough he was in there.. hahahs.. felt relieve tat instance..
went into the shop, felt uneasy thou.. den waited for him.. dono wad he was doing..
oh well den we took a bus down to cine leisure..

while waiting for the bus kelvin called to apologise again and say tat he really like to meet me but is feeling sick.. oh well wad to do.. meet him again? maybe next year ba..
den chatted wid lionel, shock to hear his age coz he do not look his age..
the bus came.. he was feeling cold.. hahahs..

b4 we walk to cine, he had a smoke, i felt tat he is considerate enough to actually make the effort to move to the other side of me so tat the smoke wont blew towards me.. he leave a very good impression.. Appearence: dressing was casual, presentable.. neat and tidy.. wonder how will he look like if he spiked his hair..Character: gentlemen & caring hahahs..
after the smoke we moved on to cine leisure.. we looked at the screen to c what movie was available.. but he seems no interest in watching movie at all.. haix.. tot i could catch a movie tat night.. but too bad.. haix..

den instead we walked around.. den went to BK buy a drink take a seat.. and chatted..
tat moment was suprising.. he barely know me but within hours he could tell me what r my interest and favourites.. and to be honest, and no offence, he know me better than zhu..
i was totally amazed..
i totally enjoy the conversation with him...

we kept walking here and there, suddenly he said give me ur hand, so i gave.. he held my hand.. keke.. he said he wanted to see my suprised look.. but somehow it din suprise me at all bcoz he asked for my hand instead of holding it suddenly.. lol..but still, felt nice we he held my hands..
we walked to somewhere near takashimaya i think.. den we sat down..
chatted.. turned my head n saw 2 bunglar.. eww, suddenly a force was grabbing my head.. lionel grab my head and kiss me.. oh oh oh~~ i tried to push away, but he's strong, so erm.. go with the flow lor.. hahahs... i felt so hot.. it was burning inside.. he laughed at me because i look so pai sei..
so mean.. lol.. awhile later, we kiss again.. den he sent me home after...
reached home.. took out the neoprint and give it a good look, seriously, he is really so cute and good looking.. whahahs... it's my type ba..

la la la...

2007-02-26T22:24:00.000+09:00

pictures taken on my birthday and a couple taken on my first visit to chillz..

Nie n Zhu new personal maidme n my chivas mix green tea.. act cool.. wearing Jh sunglass.. heehee
Eat Clorets no Stinky Breath.. heehee
Me N Zhu.. taken in Chillz Toilet...

Those Crazy poses...

we three...Buddies & sista(?) forever...!!
Com'on BIG BIG SmileEE... =D
Tat's freaky..!!
it must be the photographer tat look freaky!!! kekeke

fighting over a girl.. whahahahsss...
Stupid Faces.. hahahss

WHAHAHAHSSSS>> Cant Stop Laughing!!!

so fair so tann..

woo~~ threesome.....
3 horrible model posing..

kenna hit still so happy.. Whahahsss

At marina South.. face so chubby after swallowing all those food...

wad r we lookin at? Did Xiao Qiang pass by??
Admire me ba!! lol...
check tat out.. tat guy stepped on some dung!! lol..
me and my favourite relaxin bar..

Feeling contented.. *(look at the messy table)

yummy.. hahahs.. caught u eating on camera... eat properly don spoil image oh!!
so windy tat night..
what happen??

pictures for story 1 in Kbox...

2007-02-26T22:02:00.000+09:00

me, Ferlicia & zhu taken in the ladies
me n ferlicia.. taken at the Mrt entrance...
iN Kbox...
The SupriSe... Thanks Guys...

Nice hor...
the new couple... heehee
Pris, Ben, Zhu, Ferlicia ... iN Kbox
yummY..
Mi in Ben's addias jacket.. it smells good.. hahahahasss..

18 Birthday Part 2: Marina South

2007-02-26T20:13:00.000+09:00

After considering they decided to come along.. den meet jackson at marina South.. din expect him to reach so early..and he has been waiting for us for about 30min+.. he called us when we r at cine leisure and told me tat he will be late.. so we took our time.. and when i reached he was still joking tat he is late, den say he reach and stuff, he was confusing me..
when we reach we saw him sitting down at a corner, waiting.. lol..
den there came an uncle, he's trying to pull customer, well too bad coz i've decided to go to "zhen fa" and i will stick to the decision...no matter what..
den jack got abit bored and told the uncle tat we've got friend at "zhen fa" and we are getting a discount, the uncle belived and say he'll charge us$10 instead of $12 and there's transport provided too, got suprised.. lol..it was a good bargain but no thanks. coz we r still sticking to our desicion..
reach le.. woo hungry~~find a table, settle down and get our food..
Some time later, me and jack decided to get some prawn.. den while getting some prawns the man ask oif we want the crab as well, den mmm ok why not.. after tat den i realize it was too freaky to wash, i dare not touch it, it was dead but it limbs r still moving.. so horrible.. and jack dare to touch it but don know how to wash it.. so i start looking around to c if there's anyone who know how to wash, there was this a hot guy who is washing the crab so i asked him if he want to give us a hand.. he say it was alright at the begining den after asking another time he agree to wash it for us..
when he was washing, jack told me tat he take his hat off me.. lol.. den i told jack in a joking way, : if u weren't here i would probably get his no. and date him out ah.. lol..
we went back to our table.. thank him for washing it for us..
when we return to our table, they told us tat a prawn jumped to another table and they used a tray to cover it.. i din believe so i remove the tray n c, gosh!! the table was pretty far from ours wonder how it manage to jump tat far.. den it gave a little jump when i lift the tray it gave me a shock so without thinking much i use the tray to hit the prawn "bang" OMG den i come to my sense and realize i was being an idiot.. so embarassing.. pple were lookin.. oh my oh my..
returning with crabs in our hands they asked who kill and wash it so i say the man.. and a hot guy wash it for us.. so i ws looking around for the guy.. cant c him.. so continue with the food, but i was still trying my luck looking around to c where is he.. to my suprise i finally saw him when ferlicia moved he was only a table away from ours.. and we smiled... hahahs...
at tat moment i was think if i wan to get his no. but in mind it says tat i am leaving in 5 days time so no point... den i din think much about it le.. but still did kinda look at him.. no harm to look right.. hahahs..
it was about 12am le so pris, ben and ferlicia got to take their leave to work le.. really appreciate their company and thanks for the cake... ^.^.. did had a great time with u guys..
it's now me jack and zhu le.. so we finish up the food, realize tat he was still there.. the shop was closing le.. but they are not leaving yet neither are we.. to my suprise, tat hottie asked me to go over, but he was with his friend and i'm shy so i'm not going over.. and i asked him to come over instead and he did so i did walk a fair bit towards him as well.. he asked for my no. it's fated.. so i gave,, but felt weird when i saw his wallpaper.. he and his gf.. den he say can be friends ma..sounds true.. so oh well..den went to the wash room ro clean up, wash our hands anddo a little bit of grooming and there we go "Chillz".. in the cab he texted me.. =) den jack and zhu guessed it was him.. hahas.. din wan to be anti with my friends so i reply him rather slow..
when to chillz.. step in, such Coincidence they were playing the bdae song.. it's like specially for me but no.. it was someone bdae too.. hahas.. luckly JH reserve a table for me le.. coz it's kinda full there..and there's a pool table le!! yeah.. since i haven been playing it for ages so me and JH intend to have a game.. but halfway through jack took over for me.. coz i'm gonna sing wid zhu.. den after singing i have a match wid jack.. my pool buddy..
use to play pool wid him last dec almost everyday when pavilion was not close down but now.. shucks.. pavilion close bedok closes as well what the hell lor..
we have a friendly match.. i won.. den there was a crazy man.. really crazy.. kept disturbing jack den even told him tat he was being bully by me n zhu.. wad the.. -.-"
after pool we played dice.. honestly i think i pick it up really fast and is good at it.. lol..
opss!! din drank much tat night, only manage to finish up a bottle of chivas.. tat was really little..
den we waited for JH to knock off it was only 3 plus den so we hang around a little, took heaps of photo, crazy pose.. lol.. Bet tat taxi driver who parked there was being entertained by us..
den JH sent us all home..
really had a great time.. bonus bonus...get to know a new friend too...
heehee...

18 Birthday Part 1 : kbox

2007-02-26T19:58:00.000+09:00

woo turning 18 le.. suddenly felt tat i am so old.. always hoping to turn 18 as soon as possible so tat i could buy stuff and enter the pub legally and but when that day came, it struck me and i start to realize tat i've got to save and plan for my future le..
Oh My...
meet zhu, pris, ferlica n ben at orchard de.. but den unfortunately i went to stayover at a friend house, i left his house abit late and Damn i din know it's so tough to hail a cab at his place..
so i called them N asked then to go ahead first without me.. den they went to the kbox first..
i was late for bout an hour.. heehee.. felt bad.. coz they were working the day b4 and was tired.. but instead of them being late i was late.. keke.
Reach le.. went in to look for them..
kbox got some new beverage and it tasted mmm.. it was not tat bad.. for some..
halfway through, drank too much liquid le so need to run to the ladies.. zhu accompany me..
den somehow after visiting the ladies we intend to walk around, becoz i saw a cabinet filled with liquor and was kinda interested, so looked around at the same time i saw a fridge, den i told zhu tat i din know tat kbox actually prepare bdae cakes..and she say the cakes taste awful.. lol
coz the previous year i din know they have cakes so i baked one for zhu for her bdae.
and now need not bake le..heehee save the hassle le..
den went back to the room le..
to my suprise they actually brought a cake for me..
and it was a beauti..
felt so touch.. really wanna say thank guys..
so they sang bdae song, they actually dedicated a bdae song for me, but somehow the version was different so they sang it without the music..
den make a wish for the year..and blew off the candles and ta dah.. im 18 le..
we end the session at 7, ben pris and ferlicia was still considering if they are going to marina south or not... so think think think....

story 2:Days in moduslink..

2007-02-25T15:03:00.000+09:00

me N felica (the future to be supeerStar?)
xiao jin, lion, liang yi and xiao dino,tony
the guy standing is Ben.. cannot c the face.. i know!!
the white jacket is pris the grey jacket is jian jie

jia ming...the smilling chap..
xiao bai.. he very fair so call small white.. lolxx

this is a candi.. to be more exact majority of the photo is candi suprise de...

me and the pretty boy kang soon!! hahahs (envy his 2 dimple...)
Lion n me!! (roarrr?? 0.O"")
The leaders!! from left, xia Juan, Suimei (i think, 4got le), me, sharon and the shortie..whahahass...
another jia ming.. but he is a QA..
the chocolate lover sharon.. but all the china pple cannot pronounce her name properly so they end up calling her xue ren.. hahahs...

its really fun working in moduslink...

got to know more new friends..

there are more.. but din have a chance to take a pic with them.. as it's was my last day there..

really had a great time..

meeting andy...

2007-02-24T22:01:00.000+09:00

Andy and steven

the first story..: meeting andy..

jiahao cousin had share with her classmate to open up a pub..

so one day jiahao jio us down to relax..

we drank chivas mixed with green tea, jiahao treat.

because it's his cousin, so we get discount, we don get the triple charge thingy..

den while drinking, i realize a guy in black, his hair was spiked, eye looked misty, and the crush crush feeling has once again strike upon me..

it took me a very long time to pluck my courage and approach him.. we did made some eye contact at the begining... after approaching him, den i know his name is andy, 25 tis year..

i do like him..

There's a period of time where i go down to "chillz" almost everyday and we went out a couple time..there was once, we were actually going for a movie but den, last minute zhu wanted to meet me, and she did not want to c andy.. so i have to push him off and meet zhu.. i dono know y i did tat.. but after tat day me and andy grew a distance..

den slowly we did not contact.. he say he din dare to commite.. but to me.. it's all bullshit..

oh well..

Weeks later, suddenly he smsed me, and say tat he miss me, and wanted me to give him a chance to commite.. i told zhu.. and we both realize tat there's something up his sleeves... so i entertain him and play along..

few days later, he sms me N told me his problem.. he say tat he's having some problem with bookie.. his friend own bookie money and somehow he got invlove as well, and is facing fanical problem..

feeling real fishy.. i din bother to ask much, because he is nothing to me.. and i care less bout him..he mention the same stuff everyday.. i really cant be bother..

as day pass by.. we din really contact le.. thinking back.. this guy is an ass.. read his friendster.. he want to be a gigglo.. what the..

i like him is because of his look and his occupation as a bartender and a cop.. but for his character, he suck..

Glad tat i get over him..

singapore trip 2006

2007-02-24T21:28:00.000+09:00

This time back was fantastic..
i get to know more new friends and oso a guy who i think i might spent my life with..
the first month back was a shopping spree month..
wat i save was all spent in a month.. i brought lots of stuff, went to malaysia JB a couple times too.. really enjoyed my time.. how much i miss it now...
den second month was working month.. because i spent all my $$ so have to earn again so tat i can spent again.. ^.^..
worked in moduslink, a company tat pack CDs rom for windows Microsoft, also they print comics etc.. the leader there was not tat bad.. just tat a couple r like abit of bullies, they will climb to ur head and shit on it if u r too nice..
begining we work at the fullfillment department where we only get to work in the first 2 week every month, den somwhow on the last day of fullfillment, we were asked if we want to work in the department beside, for long.. because the new department we were asked to go to is really stable.. we get to work everyday.. so we agree to it.. it was easy slackin job.. only pasting labels..
so slack...fun too.. mostly youngster lots of crap, jokes etc..
get along pretty well with some of the leader too, den we always buy chocolate and share..almost every day we eat chocolate untill one day when i visit the chocolate department, i felt like spewing.. lol..

this past 2 months is so happening to me.. it's a chapter tat will go on and on non-stop.. there's saddness, happiness, misunderstanding, love, crazyness of fun etc..

really wish tat time dint past tat fast...

carrie bdae dinner party.

2006-11-24T08:46:00.000+08:00

franchesca, carrie and linena

alamak.. blogger dono what happen, tried to upload some photo and after waiting like forever, it says Error.. WTF.. and after a few attempts, it's still the same "Error", how fustrating it is..

ahh, it was carrie birthday on nov 15, went went to her dinner party on 17 friday, den begining they say it was a suprise and no one know where we are going.. so later it was a thai chinese resturant.. den only her table have balloons.. OMG after here so long finally i get to taste something that have the similliar taste to spore food.. so nice, the hor fun.. woo~ the prawns.. fleshy, den the beef taste so tender.. really nice..

ji hee and me brought her some present..we brought her a box of home make chocolate, a necklace that has changable crystal, a pair of cherry earrings, a poo poo bear and a box of condom..WHAHHAss.. we put the condom earings and necklace in a pretty box, den when she open it, she scream in embaressment like we expected.. den after dinner we went for a walk and start to take pictures..

den after carrie hosemom, came to look for us and we have to return to the resturant.. den the cake came, a pink and white sponge cake.. it's yum..

den there is KTV too, but i though it's in a room, but no i was wrong, we order the song we want to sing and Oh my.. we are the first one to go.. and we have to stand on a stage and sing to everyone..so embaressing..

but after all we did have fun.. carrie enjoyed the most, i bet..

but poor franchesca and linena, they might be a little bored because sue was speaking chinese to carrie ALL the time and they were pretty quiet.. and i felt sue was pretty rude..coz speaking alien language in the presence of other country pple made them felt left out..and it's not nice..

i told her really really nicely in chinese to speak english if possible,(so that i wont embarass her) but somehow she don seems to understand and continue speaking in her alien language..

i think she don know it's rude ba..she do it all the time..

somehow i got pretty annoyed by her, not only her language, she interupt conversation so often, den like to teh.. i cannot tolerate her man.. one more thing, her nails OMG so freaking long, (she told me she was too lazy to trim them unless someone force her to..) luckly it's clean otherwise, Ewwww... LOL

day 2 & 3

2006-11-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

day 2 was raining otherwise we will be heading to gold coast.. so instead we went to southbank, den took the city cat to riverside..

Day 1 [dreamworld]

2006-11-08T14:55:00.000+08:00

friday immiran my ex mac donald manager came to visit me.
XJ told him tat i was in bris so he intend to drop by for a few days and look around den go to sydney, melbourn, tasmania, perth den back to spore.. he's on leave, having holiday so good sia.
so he stayed at my hse from fri to tue.. it was so fun being with him..
friday, i din went to school and he reached my hse at 8am. den we went to dream world. there are some of the pic we took in dreamworld..
we took a cab down and it cost us $100, and becoz we don know how to return, we took a cab back as well and it cost us $120 to get back.. so expansive sia.. but den we really have fun...

my little party

2006-10-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

candid camera, carrie!!
ingela the unqualified chef of the day

washing the sausague tat ingela dropped..

lorenzo walking with the dropped sasuage, going to place it back on the grill!! o.0
Joseph, fernando and aline wearing the same brazil shirt for free dress day [left to right] joseph, fernando, aline, ingela, carrie, jasmine, and lorenzo.. Y am i no in the pic? coz i am the photographer!!hahahs

yesterday shanie went to her friend house to stay overnight and connie is always not at home, so i asked my friend over for a small little BBQ gathering party.. they came to my house and the first thing they say was woah~~ so big.. but i myself don really think my house is big, rather it's pretty empty..ingela loved my house.. den jasmine and ingela wanted to stay overnight at my house but somehow ingela is an international student and her house mom don let her because to stay at my hse her hostmom have to speak to my parents (too bad they r not here).. so she cant stay.. den later at the pool aline and me planned to throw fernando into the pool, but somehow aline betrayed me, tat traitor, she tried to help fernando to throw me in the pool, but too bad, i hold on thightly on to the fence otherwise i would be a wet chicken!! lol.. den we ate sausages and played true or dare,.. it's pretty silly, joseph spin the bottle, and it points at fernando so he have to give fernando a dare, and he told fernando to run around the tennise court and say "joeph will be the next australian idol.. " is like wad the..lol.. and i got dared to do a pole dance.. it's so embarassing man!! carrie was -.-".. when the game start she start to chicken out and kept chanting tat she wants to go home.. !!-.-" ingela was dared to kiss me.. frenc kiss me.. it was pretty disgusting.. EWW!! den at night when everyone went home it's only me and jasmine we tot of going for a swim.. and we did.. wow~ night swim.. it's so so so cold~~

2006-10-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

went to RNA showground today.. tot of buying stuff advertised on the telly, but when i reach there, nope.. i cant find the stuff that i was looking for.. but instead, i brought many bras wor.. lol.. den all bonds brand and it cost me less than $50.. how nice aye..

den today shanie have her belated bdae party held at the pool.. kao, i like servant lidat have to help her do this do that, run errands.. somethime i really dislike her.. treat her good, but the way she repay u is by rudness.. she don really give a damn about how good u treat her.. it's like treating her good is a must.. she becoming so rude.. and i really don like it..
like this incident, she say there will be 13 pple attending the party, and we brought a party pie which contains 24 of it.. den she say12 pple will have 2 and 1 pple will have 1.. WRONG!! 12 pple * 2 = 24 + 1pple get 1 = 25 pie..
i told her she calculate wrongly she say shut up.. den i told her how she calculated wrongly she still say yar lar i am right wad.. and she is not willing to listen.. den i told connie.. and she told her her miscalculation..
she dare not be rude to connie becoz first she is so fierce, second she know that if she go against she wont have anything.. cant believe..

on her bday, she came home treating me invisible, when she look for me the first thing tat she say is where is my present? i was like wat the??
i bring her shopping the other time and brought 3 tops for her.. and she knew it was for her bdae..
but becoz i know she hv no $$, so i pack a $100 ang bao made with red colour paper and put it in her bag.. den next morning i told her i saw a very big red crockache crawling into her bag.. kekke..

went on msn, den Xj ask for my no. and tell me that imeran is coming to brisbane .. den imeran called me straight after i gave my no. den he say he tot of coming to brisbane but no one to bring him around and afarid of getting lost den change direct flight to sydney and den they tot of me, so he ask if i could be his tour guide.. of coz..
den he will be coming to brisbane on NOV. for 4 days.. staying at my house..
and now i am thinking of where to bring him to..
maybe to gold coast the beach.. dream world, sea world.. but den i will be broke sia.. lol..
but anyway i am really looking forward to it..

well tat's my story for today.. till den.. ciao..

camping

2006-10-19T16:45:00.000+08:00

woo~ went camping at EMU GULLY on monday.
the trip was long and when we reach he gave us a brief talk on what we are aiming to complete and achieve in this camp, den we proceeded to the big grass patch and he said we are to run 6KM when he say run, everyone juz run blindly and he call us back, it's was to test us on how we will react.
den we are seperated in to groups, alpha, beta, charlie, delta & echo..
i was in delta.. we did stuff tat look easy yet challenging.. crossing a slightly shaky trunk bridge, sound easy aye. but when u step on it, it start to shake and when u get tense, it shake even more..
in the first round only 8 out of 26 pple manage to cross from end to end, the instructor was disappointed and and told us off, second try,100% everyone crossed.. how amazing..
den there is more like everyone have to hold hands and pass the hoop along in the fastest speed.. we tried and tried.. and we beat the record by the time of 24sec.

second day was awesome.. so tough, crossing tunnels dark and long.. and rowing a boat with supplyments and trying to protect it from the "bomb" etc.. it was heaps fun..
den went to play skirmish, paint ball, it's something like air gun, but it's bullet is much bigger and so is the gun, when the bullet hit u ard enough it will burst and stain ur cloth.. i got hit twrice and it all produce a bruise without failing.. hahas. den we even play with mud!! we have a task tat is a person will lie in the clutches and we have to get whoever who is lying in the clutches from one end to other in the soggy mug as clean as possible. it realy hard to cross the mud, it's slimy and eventually u just sink in to it. it's so difficult to walk.. my body sink in to the mud until its above my waist line. trust me it's horrible, because theres little stones in the mud and when u try to climb over a little hill, and its so slimy, u'll just rub ur shin against the little stone and cut ur shin.. after everything we are all so muddy and tired.. den we wash ourself in the swarm.. still muddy thou..

the night came, we went for a so call night WALK!! god man it' more like night climb than walk..
first we have to slide down a damn steep slide.. it was so cool man.. i had butterfly in my stomach when i slide down coz it's so fast.. den the journey began.. gosh we have to climb moutain by moutain.. i call it moutain beczuse it really look like one. so steep too.. and i nv been climbing such steep moutain b4. so scary i totally freak out..
den teamwork, one by one, and we made it to the end..
waking up the next day. all muscle no doubt the all sore like hell man,
but the camp is really fun although its tough but its enjoying..
i got so many bruise after the camp and cuts on my shin from the mud obstacle..
but one thing, i realize my muscle become bigger after the camp.hahahs...
yeah.. but untill now my arms and tight and waist sore so much..

went to school today, woah i think it's the largest amount of absentees in the year, haha..

partying again

2006-10-15T18:34:00.000+08:00

saturday night corina's having a party again at her house and i was invited..
it start at 10pm, so i was wondering should i go..
den in the end i went, brought my working uniform with me to mac first and leave all my stuff in there, den luke drove us to corina's..
damn.. it was dark, walk up the garage, so dark so many pple..
den when walk in a bit more, OMG hell man.. so many pple, so many r wasted, den there r oso pple manking out..
so instead of joinging the crowd, me xanthe and luke went to luke car's and wait for ben and accompany to arrive, watching out for ben car.. wait and wait.. den saw bryden and his vehicle, oh man his vehicle look like a toy van whaic has been magnified sia..
lol.. cute..
den chatte with him.. suddenly there is scream, a girl who is wasted fall and hit her head.. den her friend tried to carried her up and she's like protesting saying let me down i am fine..
den lata we heard that the girl who fall was fighting with DAni b4, dono what happen she got beaten up den no one help.. what the hell lor, den they punch her back when she was on the floor. wah lao her friend all kns.. shit sia nv help.. but she seems alright.. keke..
finially ben reAched, there is really too much pple at the party le.. bout 100++ den corrina dad's got kinda mad.. maybe coz of pple making out and smoking week and fighting going on.. den later at about 12+am, all pple r being sent off to go home, but only mac crew pple have the priviliages to stay and continue partying and oso to enter the house..
it's was abit bored. but not tat bad.. i did not get wasted this time, jux have a few cans of beer,.. den later there is this game going on, kinda stupid and bitch de..
like we have to spin the bottle, whoever spins it have to kiss the person tat the bottle points to, den if u r guy and u don want to kiss a guy, u have to stripe, like u either kiss or stripe.. i am like what the hell.. strip is not take off all cloth lar, but 1 clothing on u..
den george so suey tio so many time den he don wan to kiss guy so he stripe until left his underwear onli.. whahhas,
den ben, he is a realy big guy ma, den he oso tio a guy den he don wan to kiss or strip coz he got breast ma, den portia she help ben strip.. OMG so funny she is so violent sia..
den later tio me.. KNS they wan me to take off my cloth i say no ah i rather kiss sia.. so pai sei lor, but den corina is a sult sia, she choose strip.. den she was wearing sockings with holes and a shirt n bra in side, sfter she took off her shirt, only her bra n her sockings left u know socking can c through de ma.. but she don care.. den portia is a biosexual ma..den corrina have super big tits so portia kept asking her to take off her bra, and it was damn funnie..
but she did not lar..
after the game le, everyone wear back their own clothes, but tat bitch nv, she don care somehow she is very thickskin lehx don know what is embarassing de.. kekek.. daring too lar..
but anyway i was lucky becoz i only tio a couple times and have to kiss only, boy n girl oso have lar, but somehow i dono lehx i think that the girls r a better kisser than thr guys lehx.. hahahs..
opss..
anyway i think i wont go to such party anymore le, because honestly i prefer small group party den a big group..
den this funny part, april and her bf alex was like kissing n kissing non stop, jux look like a horny couple den corrina mom's saw and guess what se say ? she told them to go get a room and seriously the went in to one of the bed room and... no sex lar but.. dono lar, but because the door have no lock de.. so they oso disturbe lehx, like after quite some time, they open the door and went in to the room and c what's happening sia.. lol!! what the hell lor.. lol... but they r in the cover so they couldn't c a thing lar.. hahahs..

den we have fun until the sky was bright and it was 6 am + le.. den pple who r not working left and those who r workin like me de stay becoz her house is so near the city.. den her mom sent us off to work.. nice..
corrina smells in the morning, den when she come with us in the car her mom kept saying tat she smells and make her felt like crap.. hahahs.. but she really stinks.. BO~~ kekeke..

2006-10-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

got back my result for term 3.. not excited nor worried..
physic, like what i expected,once again i flunk it ,
maths B i am pretty glad about it because overall i pass..
biology i pass.. chinese and hospitality no doubt,
i'm bound to pass and now is english that is not done yet, and it's going to be proceed within this week..
it's an english written oral, i hope i will pass well pls!!
so for term 3 result, i am satisfied as i only flunk 1 subject so far..
i probably going to change that subject if i could to multistrand science..
otherwise i have to stick with it and continue struggling..
physic is crazy!!

woo~~ going to camp next week !!..
departing on the 16 and returning on the 18, school dance on 19 oct..
how exciting.. but i probably not going to the school dance because it's theme is halloween,
and i haven got any costume moreover i will be back from camp the day b4, might be tired out..

PS: don work so hard.. take good care of yourself.. haven been seeing u lately on msn..

2006-10-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

holiday is going to be over le.. and my asignment haven yet to be completed.. jialat liao..
today went to work..
long hours sia.. but had 1 hour break instead of 30 min, becoz it's dead, no business..
den work work work.. josh came.. work with him i will die sia.. he so retarded lor..
lazy and slow too.. when no business, he stand at the buns rack leaning on it,
den sam came over and said : josh! could u stop harassing the bun rack?
lol.. he is so so so slow.. like to act smart too..dono what to do pretend as if he knows..
den when ask him to do something he say: u do it.. den when u caught him bludge, he will say that there is nothing to do..what an ass man..!!

den i was taking the tray to the washup room to spray wash it, suddenly, for no reason, debbie came over to me grab my head and kissed me on my cheeks, i was stuned, den sam came by..
if i'm not wrong i think she think that i am a lesbian..
so after washing, i went to ask debbie what's that for? den infront of sam she said, i kissed winnie and i like u very much, i am a lesbian..and she was joking and we all know that.. lol

oso everyone in the stall wants to know what exactly happened on that night after dreamworld, den during my break, they confronted me, but i did not tell them everything, juz said that i drank a fair bit too much and hook up with the girls..and tat's it, after, the manager matthew he asked as well, den i refuse to say anything and he ask if i'm embarasses and oso to just tell him as he wont tell anyone.. i laughed and say nothing.. lol

yesterday morning, xanthe sms me apologising for being a bitch that night den when i saw her in the afternoon at work i ask y did she apologise, den she told me that she kinda pissed me that night and i nearly bash her up, pushing her to the wall and swear.. i was shocked tat i am tat aggressive..hahas..

2006-10-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a wholly awesome day that i had so far since the day i arrived..
went to dream world.. gosh macdonald actually book the whole theme park and it's only for mac crew..
there is like a total of 2000 pple.. but there seems to be more than that the lines were long..
it's a shame that we did not have enough to hop on to all the ride but still i had fun..
therides were short and it's really so much mor excited and higher that the one in escape..
den all food we ate was free.. but i did not gorge on those food,because i might spew it all out..
went shopping in there and brought some stuff. but, most shop were close and so i jus brought some little stuff and it was really costy.. oh well once in a while it's wont harm much..
after in the but i sat with poddy.. OMG he is so stupid.. lol.. den when he say he is going to take a nap, amanda and tom were like disturbing him making him feel erotic, by squeezing his nipple and like running therir finger down his neck.. den oso tickle him.. becoz he say tat i had to wake him up when we reach, so i say don worry i will make sure u are Awake!! den he actually suck on his tumb to go to sleep.. hahahs...
after we reach we were like deciding to go whose hose to party.. den finally we decided to go to corinna's den together me tegan, dommy, portia, xanthe went over to corinna's hse first den george went to buy some alcohol for us den he came back with ben and shane..
the party was interesting.. because i got a vodka straight and shane got a burbune straight as well he challenge me to drink shots.. well i did not accept it because i know i will have to bear the consequence of it if i were to challenge him.. so he went on without me.. he drank one full cup straight.. it's burning inside for sure.. but he seems fine and proud about it.. it's was cool.. but not long after that it is uncool when he start to spew.. he was drunk.. really drunk because the alchol had start to circulate around his body.. keke,.. luckily i know my limit and did not went with him.. den he was throwing up so much tat he end up lying on the sink with his foot rested on the stove.. he was there lying for hours.. hahahs..
den we played with the cats, holly it was huge,. a big fat lazy cat man.. lol.. nice to hug..
den later when everyone kinda get drunk, something happen.. everyone started to kiss each other..
but wait it's not boy and girl but is girl and girl.. whahahs.. it was freaking hailarous..
den we were like chatting b4 as well den i realize that 6 girls including me, 3 were bisexual and 1 is a lesbian..and 2 were totally straight.. i really cant imaging tat french kissed every girls..
first is like portia was sitting beside me, den i was sitting there feeling dizzy then those pple dare us to make out and kiss so we kissed, den later the dare was like going on all around the room and eventually i get to kiss al the girls.. i think the guys felt left out.. Whahhas... so shane went to hug and like wanting to kiss george, den george said hey u freaking gay man.. get off me.. WHahahhss..
in the end, i cant sleep the whole night kept going to the toilet, like dehydrating lidat den kept falling down.. everyone was asleep.. in the morning tegan got to work so i wake her up at 6 and went to the bus stop with her and sent her to work.. went home after that den didnt went to sleep instead i went suntanning and swimming..
den bath and slept for 4 hours..
Awake le.. den have to trim the grass in the garden.. it's was so tiring, because we haven got a mower so we have to use a big sissors and slowly cut off the weeds, trim the tree etc..
now my muscle is so sore..
but we are not fully done yet.. still have more work to do tomorrow..
and school is gonna resume on monday and holiday is soon over.. and it the last term.. den woo~~ spore here i come..

hot air balloon

2006-10-01T15:25:00.000+08:00

walking to the bus stop den i spot 3 hot air balloon high up in the sky..
den i start to think tat i am in one of the balloon... how nice it is..
wonder if singapore have it..
coz i'd really be delightful to fly in one..
imagine with bf, woah sei... lol.. so romantic sia.. lol
anyway...
recently i'm so into jay, kept watching his videos den kinda like him more le...
he not yan dao, but diao...
woah.. cool..
1 more week den holidays is over..
den jialat liao..
den have to pull up my socks liao..
still i better really enjoy my hoidays..
woo~~~

fatty fatty!!

2006-09-29T19:13:00.000+08:00

today is moi brother birthday..really wonder how is he doing le..
anyway hope he is feeling fine... i kinda miss him.. those day..
went clubbing, pool, tok cock.. really nice.. oso if piggy were to come along, gosh it will be like fantanstic..
i really miss them.. have been missing pple who i hang out with often recently..
steven.. zhu say she saw steven, at tat moment i realize his existance den i start missing him as well..
feel like seeing him.. the feeling tat i had a crush on him is still tangling in me somewhere...
the feeling of excitement, sadness and happiness is all mixed up.. it's not good yet it's not bad either..
now, sitting on the chair blogging while thinking of those memories really gives me a urge of wanting to fly back immediately.. how i really miss u guys.. T.T

anyway jasmine came to my hse today and taught me to read some notes, and the fingering of the guitar, it's wasn't as easy as i thought.. it's complicated and confusing.. it probably be time consuming if i really want to master the skill of playing that thing..
den we play badminton.. sweat a little and we chatted den headed back to my house and continue with the lesson and not long later, she went home, walked her to the traffic light near the coles village.. it's sunny today.. nice weather..

i think i am really putting on weight.. i tried to exercise yesterday, but end up creating bruises all over, got a big patch of bruise on my knee cap and all over my knuckles..

i tried lifting weight, using both hands, den i realise that it is not a very good ideal, because my right hand is naturally stronger than my left so when lifting the weight, my right hand tends to use more strength than my left and it end up building more muscle on my right and not my left.

OMG i am really putting on weight, what can i do.. i seems to be lazier.. it's so bad.. HELP.. some advice pleaseee..??

working tomorrow, opening, have to reach city by 7am.. ahh tired...

shopping sprEee

2006-09-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

i got my pay, feeling happy.. i ask shanie to meet me in the city after work and i brought her to the korean resturant and eat, den when shopping, brought her 3 tops and 2 for myself, it wasn't a very nice day, it was showering.. so we thought tat it would be nice to buy an umberalla since we've got none.. den we went to priceline and start to shop around.. i want to be tan.. tried tanning myself the other time, but i got burn instead.. so i start to shop for a sun tan lotion.. it's coconut oil one.. eww.. but it will do i guess don have any other choice from the stall.. and oso got a new anti dandruff shampoo tat is advertise in the tv recently and shanie bugged me to buy for her. i was suprise, i tot it would be expansive because it's neutrogena but it turn out to be cheap.. den after getting those stuff we went to the korean market.. yoyo.. again.. the small little basket tat could cost u a bomb..got some packet drinks, junk food and more junk food..

it was still showering.. we took a bus and went home..

in the resturant there is like a no. metal tag on the table.. den when my food came, shanie hit the tag and it was like so loud.. and her face turn redish.. kekeke..
when shopping for clothes, the changing room was all full so we were queeing and waiting, while waiting there is this impatience women who actually went in between the changing tent and start changing there.. i was like What The Hell man.. so disgusting.. free show.. ewww... no thanks..

workday

2006-09-24T17:36:00.000+08:00

went to work today..as now it's holiday for sure i'll work heaps..
i finish at 4.30 today and fernando asked me to wait for him so we could take the same bus home.. so i did..
den after, we chatted alot..
and i got this feeling that if he were to say in aust forever, i will go for him..
i enjoy his company, i feel natural.. good feeling..
and he is nice too..
but it's a pity that he is going back to brazil in dec.. and i will never get to c him again.. T.T
oh well at least i get to meet and know him.. and that's call fate..

ahh mac.. there is something like a competition going on that 20 crew who get the most points, get to go to dreamworld for free..
but somehow, the list of crew is not choosen base on the points but on who the manager favours..
so some really new crew get to go too because they are out going, and some old crew get neglected..
it's so not fair that BEN did not get to go.. and i dono Y.. he is super big size, however he is harworking and oso swift in working so i don c y he don get to go..
poor ben, he muz felt bad.. the manager who choose were mel and chelsee, their relationship with ben seems close but how can they do this to him..
anyway i am one of the choosen one and i get to go.. but somehow i am kinda both excited and frighten, becoz the rides far more higher compare to the escape theme park in singapore.. but if i miss this time, the next time if i want to go, it will cost me about $60 bucks and + travelling lehx??.. oso it takes about 1h+ to reach there, it's a long journey.. this crew trip include travelling, entrance ticket, and refreshments so it will be a shame to miss out.. i don even have to pay a single cent sia.. kekeke..

working with nick today, i like to work with him but i hate too.. like becoz he is swift hate becoz we are both swift and he tends to take advantage of me and bludge alot.. wat a bum.. worst thing is that while bludging, he curry flavours the manager so, enjoying the flavour, the manager of coz would like to continue the conversation.. so i am doing all the work.. den after the manager will come and bootlick me.. which annoyes me.. a little praise is fine but too much is gross..always, winnie u r an excllent worker.. winnie u r the best.. but lucky he is easy going so as a manager he is consider not bad le..

but still nick he is a backstabber, always complaining that he don like who and who.. for godsake la.. please realize that not everyone have to please u and work ur way..u r no better too, always tried to act like a trainer or worst a manager be bossy kns la.. OSO.. if i not wrong he muz be the one who spreads nonsensecial rumors.. always saying that who and who is lesb or gay.. so shit de.. shut tha hole up la.. so crap..

reading her blog is one of my daily routine if i were to go onto the net.. read her blog today, den i realize.. i have never seen a love so strong.. she is so devoted.. it's both a good and bad thing.. but still she is my mate, seeing her sad, makes me sad too, it's juz instinctively.. but i really would advice her that if she ever come accross a guy who loves her and who seems to have a better future and treat her good, as well as if she loves him back, go for it.. don hesitate..
no matter what i say, it's still her choice, so i only can wish her good luck..

Ps.. don be sad hao ma.. i like to c the cheerful side of u.. bet not only i am in love with ur smile others as well..
smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile... :D

snoopy [2]

2006-09-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

snoopy..Suck..
he's like a gigolo..
erm, actually is more like a leech..
a liar, a boaster and a looser!!..
he speak arrogantly about thing he possess,
which all seems to be like a lie..
he is so shat!!he told my friend that i will give him money..
No shit man!! he seems proud about it thou..
gosh.. might as well be a real gigolo..
feeding off women..
seriously i despise him..
What a dickhead!!

frustrated!!

2006-09-18T13:41:00.000+08:00

today is the day like some other day when i felt blue..
everything seems to go wrong..
guy who i like has show the real him..
and i realize that he is a scumbag and falls on to the catergory of
another horny bastard..
and now when i think the sight of him, it disgust me!!
oso.. the GIRL.. another bitch..
i can stand no more..
somehow the world seems to be getting on my nerves le..
vexed... T.T..

coming back wor..

2006-09-18T08:28:00.000+08:00

2 and a half months to go.. woo.. cant wait sia..

i seems to plan everything for the trip back le..

gosh. how excited it will be.. counting down everyday..

but still it's still long..

ytd ah boy called..

den suprise, we chatted longer than ever..

but, i reckon if we chat about that long everyday,

his phone bill.. woo hoho..

lol.. anyway..

i am so looking forward to the day...

i got my tickets already..

2006-09-17T21:07:00.000+08:00

went to the movie again watched: Nacho Libre.. Gosh.. it'a flim not to be missed.. it's hilarious & romantic .. i nearly laugh my head off..
den after watching the flim with ingela.. this time she is not that horrible, becoz i ask if she could not scream even if she is excited.. it's kinda bad.. i know.. but.. keke..
ah.. i wore a high cut shoe... this is the second time i wear it.. like the first, it's hurts my toes and heel heaps.. i got like a huge blister on the heel and it somehow bleeds a little.. den i took off the shoe and walked all the way from southbank to the city.. on the bridge, there is like glass pieces on the ground.. luckily i am not blind enought to not c the bits of broken glass if not.. i cant imagine.. den toto of getting a new pair of shoe.. but the shops are all close.. den went to the bubble tea shop to look for carrie and ji-hee.. and ingela went home..
not long after i reach, carrie had to go.. den she wanted us to go to the bus stop with her..
we take the bus from the same bus stop, BUT her bus come at 5.50 and our bus come at 6.20 it's 30min wait and the bus stop is like really far lor..
den later mi n ji hee intend to have dinner in the city but carrie kept bugging us to go to the bus stop with her, my foot really hurts.. and oso i can feel that ji hee dosen want to go as well..
coz when carrie said lets go to the bus stop, she was still sitting down not moving.. kekeke.
den after she want to go to the toilet.. so carrie say she had to go first or she will miss her bus..
den we bid goodbye to her.. she don look happie..
well.. it's not entirely our fault.. u have to think too, y r we going to the bus stop with u when it's still so early.. oso we have to walk UP HILL to the bus stop.. and the place we are going is entirely to different ways.. OH my..
den we went to a chinese resturant to eat as the korean n japanese resturant r close, the food at the chinese resturant was.. eww? not up to my standard yet.. but i will be back to try the noodles.. keke.. den after eating, i got a phone call, from david.. i was surprise.. he ask if i am going to school tomorrow.. coz it's exam tomorrow... and we need not come if we don have one.. den i say yes.. have to get my file... den he say he too.. and we are meeting in the library tomorrow.. i'm wondering now.. so what? in the library den? what about after?
so stupid.. kekke..
but anyway i will be in school tomorrow..

physic

2006-09-15T12:05:00.000+08:00

today physic exam.. crap...

sick for so many days le..

of cox never study properly la.. until yesterday..

haix.. today test was..

oh well.. what else can i say..

still got the sniffling nose...

so pissing me..

as i predict, i will flunk my physic exam again..

i bet i will..

hopeless!!

come and go!!

2006-09-13T14:37:00.000+08:00

monday night, the fever came and strike me..
i felt so cold on the hands and leg yet my face felt so hot.. it's like burning..
i turn on the heater and used a few blanket.. put on a jacket as well, wear long pants, thick socks..
but i'm still feeling so cold..
i tried to sleep but i kept waking up.. feeling either too cold or that my face is too hot...
my room is really hot becos when i wake up suddenly, i felt that my body was burning.. seriously..
so i turn off the heater and went to the toilet.. my room was warm and stuffy.. i could hardly breath..
the night seems so long... i feel like dying... felt so weak.. the feeling certainly wasn't good at all...
finally the sun has rise.. but i only went to the doc at about 1 pm.. sharks.. went there.. they say i have to wait, becoz they are like doing an operation.. so i only get to see the doctor at 2..den i went to school.. the international room to look for my friends.. chat wid them.. finally the bell has gone and it was 2.. den i went to the clinic...
doc says i got a virus... gave me 2 day MC
and some medicine
den i went home..
took the medicine.. it was rubbish.. it dosen seems to be working until i took a panadol at night.. den i start to feel better...
and today i am really feeling better than yesterday... no more fever.. but the runny nose is still there.. so irritating..
it hurts my nose alot.. coz i have to keep sneezing out those slimy secretion (mucus)..
and if u know me, i am not very gentle.. so it really hurts alot...

monday sickness

2006-09-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

went to school on Monday having a headache feeling damn cold and have a super running nose..
so i went home during lunch time put my jumper on.. meet my friend at 3, went to city, pay my tickets, do some shopping and settle our dinner.
i was shivering like hell in the city I felt like I am in a freezer..
so after dinner we went to this Korean market, instinctively i grab a basket and start to grab my favourite junk food as well.
The basket look small, and we actually fill the basket until it's over flowing den went to foot the bill.
OMG.. the total startled me.. it's $40 for my junk and $20 for my friend junk...
it's unbelievable tat filling a small basket would cost so much..
after tat i was too cold to take a bus home so i carrie and i, we share a cab and went home..
city to my home it had already cost $ 22 den to her house.. it's really expansive...
aww...
waste to much $$ T.T
heart pain...
hahahhsss

to the movie

2006-09-13T12:19:00.000+08:00

saturday went to the movie
i think it's so international.. so fun, because each and every of us came from different country
like lorenzo(italy), ingela(german), fernando(brazil) and soloman(aust)..soloman, he's a black thou..**Not charcoal but milk chocolate..
we watched dead or alive.. quality of movie= awesome!!
this is how we seated in the movie:
lorenzo, soloman, me, ingela, fernando
before the movie start it was commercial.. and previews of some comming soon movie..
and INGELA got so excited and could't stop talking.. she laugh loudly.. Well who cares.. it's commercial the movie haven yet started, so make all the noise u want..
the movie has started..
she is still talking.. talking to fernando..den she laugh so loud, and i could even hear fernando say ingela shut up.. den she say sorry i am so excited.. i know, but shhooo...
hahahs.. and when they are fighting the bad egg, she too wanna join in, moving her hands whilst saying KILL HIM, DAMN, I HATE HIM etc... den fernando say SHHHHH again of coz... hahhahhass

after the movie, i was walking with fernando, he say OMG cant stand her.. so noisy and embarassing, everyone is looking at me u know...OMG so embarassing... and i was laughing and laughing... den we meet matteo n his aussie friend outside the cinema..
ingela have to go first.. so after she went off, everyone is making fun of her.. that if we were to watch snake on a plane, she would have scream like hell, and if someone were to touch her during the movie she would jump up and scream, probably even run off.. hahhahas...

not long after fernando went home too.. so try to catcha bus at southbank, waited for nearly 1 h.. no bus insight, den we saw the board saying the bus route had change, so we hve to go to the other side down the road to catch the bus.. WTH!! so we walk down.. we saw the bus waiting at the bus stop so we ran.. the fucking bus driver saw us.. but he choose not to wait but to drive on.. which made us so mad!! his bus was empty not a single soul in there... what an asshole...
the next but came in 15 min.. so we waited, while waiting, as usual, matteo was making fun of me and lorenzo again.. he even ask me to kiss him.. i was like what the hell... shut up..
den oso he was making some sex wanted face.. he stick his tongue out and lick his finger, his lips etc... ewww... hahahhs...
i was so not turn on by him..
instead i felt disgusted...
hahahas...
the bus came.. they drop off at ashgrove, i did not went along for they are going to have pizza and i was too full becoz b4 i went to the korean shop and have my meal with ingela..
so i say bye bye to them...

woo~~

2006-09-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

cloudy days don appear sometimes and for me.. the grey sky has gone.. and now is the sunshine day...
ahh.. school stuff.. the interesting topic..
a while ago i am kinda like the hot topic in the school ground for certain groups..
they were gossiping about me and a guy.. lorenzo.. who is from italy..
there were ruomers everywhere that they say that he likes me and i like him..
so i asked him on msn, and he admited..
he says he likes me alot..
but he is leaving on dec..
so what should i do? i kinda like him.. but not love..
all my friends say he is cute and if i reject him, i might regret after he's gone..
so what can i do? because i do have crushes.. i like someone else...

and after thinking for a couple of days, i am willing to give myself and him a chance..
but the biggest problem is that i am actually feeling shy with the present of him and he too is shy when he sees me..
his friend matteo.. that dickhead!!
always never fail to not mock at us in school..
so crap... always embarasse us..
today in maths class i was sitting in the front, lorenzo and matteo is sitting at the back, and there's this converstaion going on between us..
den later out of a sudden,
matteo say to me over the classroom..
bring him to the toilet and kiss him...
i was like OMG!!
quickly i really like to dig a hold and burried my head in there...
the class was laughing...
OMG!!
den after class i went to the bus stop as fast as possible with my friend without bidding goodbye to him.. hahahs...
so so so so embarassing man..
geez..

hurtt..

2006-08-30T09:37:00.000+08:00

i dono... my emotion are so mess up le.. felt so stress with school work, and working le.. and instead of destressing, more problems are added to it.. it's making me feeling worst and even stress.. i feel lost..
why?!! why do everything happen in such a short time.. i'm scare and lost.. what can i do.. what should i do?
i don want that to happen... i don.. i am worry of the future.. my family...
so screw... so screw...
i miss them... but what is happening to them? i seriously have no idea..
i don like to call them.. because i dono what to say.. and i hate the feeling when both of us have nothing to say on the phone.. that moment is so awkward..i i rather not call them.. i sledon text them too.. i juz simply dono what to type.. i really got nothing to talk to them.. but i seriously do miss them...
haiz...
think i better stop blogging before my tears roll down..
now in school...
but i really wanna cry out loud and i need someone to be by side to console me and talk me out... but... no one.. i have no one...
T.T...
my sisters... no thanks..
they will only make me feel even worst..
:(
but if one day.. if i had to choose to live with one parent,..
no one will ever see me again...
because i cannot bear the concequences of seeing a beautiful picture being tare down right infront of me...
i cant....
my sky, my mood they all seems so grey.. so blurish.. :(

story of me and david during goals..

2006-08-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

david he's cute..[kekekekekeke...]
during goals, he passed me a note saying wat's ur number..
at that moment, i was floating in cloud nine .. but the horribe stuff is that i do not have the habit of memorising my own phone no. so i got no choice but to replied: i'd like to give u my no. but unfortunately i cant remember it.
and i think he tot tat i did not want to give him so he replied saying tat i was a meanie..
den of coz i would not let the conversation stop there so i replied tat i 'm winnie and not meanie..
so he asked if i am walking home afterwards, and yes i am, he offered to walk me home.. but somehow there's something on my mind..and instead of accepting the offer, i asked what is his intention, and that i smell something fishy..
i couldn't stop laughing.. and he did not reply.. when the bell rang, quickly i walked out of the classroom to the locker and went off home..
i don no Y.. i felt fear and gladness at the same time.. i'm confused..
and now when i see him, i feel awkward..

toopid mac!!

2006-08-19T16:20:00.000+08:00

got a long hour shift today, from 8 to 4..
i reach mac at 9 past 7, going down an escalator, a girl sitting in the dining room waved to me..
i was suprise, den i realize she's lauren my collague..
and i saw nick as well.. den i know that there's no manager there to open the stall..
it open at 7.30am and b4 they open we have to do some preparations..
den it was already 8+ and there were no one..
finally samantha came, she said she was late.. and the other manager Rob did not turn up. such coincidence.. den quickly, we went in and start the opening..
it was busy man..
many pple waiting outside for the stall to open.. is like what the hell lor.. there's another stall down a few shop.. go there la..lol..

8 hours working, leg is sore,den finish le..i brought some food.. junior burger with extra sauce and onions..
went home, KNN like no sauce lidat den extra pickles instead of sauce.. what the hell nia..
toopid de lor..!!
juz wanna eat a burger happily oso cannot.. lol..

Save it..

2006-08-16T19:09:00.000+08:00

need not apologise..
it's ur choice.. like wad i said before..
u got the autority to do wateva u like,
say wadeva u wan..

but one thing..
if u intend to keep it from me,
don ever let me know..
even if u feel bad or guilty,etc..
don come and tell me, tat u kept things from me...
because
I Do Not Want To Know..
and at that point of time when u confessed,
apologising will not work..
and i will only feel upset, disappointed and will start to wonder:
Y the hell did u did that for?
is it because u don trust me?
or is it because u jux don feel like telling?
i dono..
but i really still have this question in mind:
y didn u tell me tat u know it when i told u about the incidence? how can u pretend that u know nothing?
u r my favourite, i tell u almost everything..
but on the other hand..
things are different..

Oh Well.. Wad Can i say more??
nothing,.. but sigh..

ekka day

2006-08-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

ekka day i went to work..
got a crap shift.. 2.5 hours..
but luckily it's plubic holiday so we get paid more den usual..
but still too short..
connie waited for me..
we went to the korean resturant and ate..
order too much, and we cant finish it..
it's was wasteful..but.. what can we do..
went for a game of pool after that..
And i lose by one ball..
crap.. hahas..
and we are going to the ekka on sunday..
Yeah!! ^.^

did some boxing practice..
sprain my wrist a little, and the skin tear off a little at both knuckles..
my wrist really hurts today at work when i have to lift boxes and fries basket..

oh well.. it's gonna be fine soon i guess..
hopefully..

chat wid him a little today.. :)
stupid WinniE!!

* hope nothing will happen to jackson..
may the 2 nannies be doing their job well..
and look after him..
hahahs...

HaaaChoo!! 'god bless euu'!! -.-"

2006-08-16T19:06:00.000+08:00

i really feel like jogging..
quickly i change into my singlet and a short shorts and off i go..
heading towards the school field...
i walk den i jog den i walk and i jog.. 5 rounds..
tot of continuing, but i got problem breathing..
it hurts so much between inside my mouth and nose..
so i did some stretching b4 i went off..
hahas.. lazy to walk the long path from the back so i climb over the fence instead..
hahas.. reached home..
haaaChooo...
i got the sneezing disease.. i kept sneezing non stop..
and now i've got a running nose..
how 'lucky'..
HA~HA~HA~... -.-"

don lie!!

2006-08-06T17:39:00.000+08:00

semi formal [2005 oct/nov]
"let's take pic with my camera!!, den i can sent u the pic."
dance night [2006 aug]
"lets take pic together""can u sent me the pic?'"yes"
On msn, she sent me a couple of the dance night pic, and said :"i'll sent the rest to u again next time ok!'
today on msn, "can u sent me the pic""can i sent u later, i am busy." 20mins later,[offline]
knnbccb la... u r really getting on my nerves by lying to me constantly lor!!
u said to sent the pic took on formal night to me upteens time but till now, where the heck it is?
if u don not have the intention to sent, don promise!! semi formal pic, she took the pic of me and my crush, she knows i like him but y don she sent to me?unless she like him too..

busy cant sent? wad the hell la, it's dosen take u a long time to locate the files and double click on it to sent, N while sending u can do ur monkey business!!

i really cannot stand her at times...
i don hate her.. but i get annoyed..
she talk toooo much
always repeating the same old things
she make me feel stress, often say she have to do well get good OP..
etcetc....
i can stand no more.. i'm feeling so shag..
headach headach... HELP!!! >.<

Sports Day!!

2006-08-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to bed really early, so i wake up really early too!! and tat's annoying!! i cant really get to slp, having headaches, kept waking up too, so since i cant get to sleep and have got nothing to do, so i decided to go to the school sports day.
i took my time preparing, dilly dally, den went to school. it was alright, not as fun coz my friends all did not want to go.. but i went along.. it was interesting too, some pple really run fast..
glad tat i went, coz this guy tat is cute, actually came over to sit beside me and we chatted.. Oso we got something in common, which is we r both a horror movie fan!! lol!! finally it's over, we had to go back to our house and cheer for points.. and wait for the birth of the final result..
it was Wriggle house tat had won, Antares which is my hse, came in second and Orion came in last!! it's was a shame tat we didn't win, but the competitors really did well.. most winning competitors are from our hse too.. anyway, there is still next year!!
welll so it's still not tat bad after all... there's some picture that i took..

school dance night picture

2006-08-02T14:36:00.000+08:00

some pictures tat i took yesterday...

school dance

2006-08-02T13:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday was school dance night.. it's was kinda fun.. we danced.. me n carrie really danced... but jihee n company hardly moved.. we dance throughout for nearly 3h.. i took off my shoes thou, seems much comfortable to dance without it however, it was dangerous too.. becoz u'll get stomp on your feet by else one and i would bet that it will hurt!!
the theme was priates and princess, girls dressing up as princesses or priates is usual, but guys dressing up as a PRINCESS was certainly unusual.. and here this guy that is from south africa, he dress up like a princess, wearing a red dress..OMG!! i took a pic with him.. he was the only guy in the dance who wear a dress, he even got boobs fixed in..how sexy..LOL!!!
after the dance, we went off, tot off getting some food at mac, but too bad, it was close.. so waited for ji-hee house mom to pick her up and give me a lift as well...
and today, i was aching all over, probably because i party too hard last night... oh well..!! but still i had some fun... =P

clever winnie?

2006-07-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

today i brought my second mp3 that have a voice recordable function in to the classroom and i started to record down physic lesson... and i realise it work.. so.. i will be recording it for each and every lesson.. and i hope it will helps, although it's abit dui lian... but... bo bian la.. hahahs... lol...den i sent the files to my friend who has sprain his ankle and wasn't able to attend class... and i hope it will help him out too... coz this semester is really important...

tomorrow is the school dance.. so looking forward to it man..

this guy tim woody, i know him during my attachment at chinatown, we swopped no. den now we r still in contact.. he can speak chinese... lol... den he says he likes me.. but think it was a joke.. and he ask if i want to go to a movie with him.. i am still thinking now... scare lehx... he 20years old...but he's kinda nice de.. he say he will bring me to parties if i am free.. bcoz this year and next year is important, so cannot have tat much fun, if not addicted how? haix... btw i am working on weekends and weekdays after school i need to slp or study so how to go out? what's more now is winter... so cold... sianz sia...

A touching movie

2006-07-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

shanie and her friends rented a couple of videos tape on friday, so i watched it today since it's my day off and i've got plenty of time to do nothing!!
it's an old Disney flim i believe, it's title is: A Little Princess.
it was so touching, the flim just ran half way through and i have already started to form crystal clear droplets in my eye..shanie watched with me too, and because she watched with me that is why i have this Question in my mind now.. i actually cried and she did not, instead she look bored!!so i was thinking am i too emotional or is she heartless.. lol.. den she went off to pack her stuff and get herself ready to meet her friends, i was left to watch alone, OH GOD this movie is really so Touching..
i couldn't stop crying when it was near the end.. this is really a classic movie that is worth watching..

Discription: A young little girl sarah who lived with her dad in a mistical land; india, had to move, because her dad was going for a war so she had to go to a girl school in new yoke where her deceased mom use to studied at.
They were rich, her dad choose the biggest room in the school for sarah.she own many dolls, pretty outfits etc... The principal was nice to her in the present of her papa, disliked sarah for her intelligency and imagination, but still she tolerated. until on sarah b'dae when the bad news was released that her papa was dead in the war, since then things are starting to change .
because the principal had spent heaps of $ on her eg.brought her a huge b'dae cake etc... and knew that after papa was dead, their fortunes had all be taken away by the goverment becoz there wasn't any will, sarah is now poor. knowing that the $$ spent on sarah will not be return, she let sarah stay in the filthy and dilapidated room for the maids with beckky, confiscated all her belongings and made her do house chores in the count of returning the debts that she had own and wouldn't allow her to communicate with other students in the house becoz of her status.
she was once punished by doing all beckky and her own chores and not to be given food for the whole entire day for discovering that other students were in her room communicating with sarah, because of sarah facinating imaginative stories and her made believe encouragement, her ex schoolmates loved her and her stories as well...
knowing that beckky and her wont be given food for the next day, they thought to have a 'feast' before they sleep so that they wont be hungry...
...she was nearly dead when she tried to escape from the authorites because she was being accused for thefting where she did not, her imagination with beckky came true in one night, beckky thought that they went to far with the imagination when there were food on the table, nice pretty clothing and new shoes for them the next morning, it's just like the 'feast' they mention the night before.
realizing that the necklace she confiscated was disappear the principal went to her room and found out that her room was decorated nicely so she accused her for stealing all the stuff that came from nowhere like how she stole the necklace back. [the necklace was given to sarah by her papa, belongs to her mom. papa gave to mom on weeding day.][necklace was given back to sarah from classmates.]...
.....
blah blah..... go and watch... for the ending!!! lolx...

[hahahs] Sports day?

2006-07-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

friday was sport day, the entire school day had change to a sport event. However, i did not bother to attend and i rather prefer to remain at home; tucking into my nice warm blanket, lying on my cosy bed and resting my head on my soft fluffy pillow, having a good sleep.. by the way it's was raining in the morning, so i wonder how the event could possibily be able to carried out!

den in the afternoon, i went to work. met michelle; a SAC member who knows every single event and everything that happen in our school.
she asked: did u went to school today? Certainly Not, i replied.
den she told me that the attendance was pathetic, and only 30 year 12 students attended, and it was hardly a crowd! OSO the school caption did not attend too. A school caption!!he is the head prefect. MR brenan was furious i heard, and because of the rain, the event was postpond to thursday, this comming thursday.. DAmn it man!! i reckon that it is a waste of time, because of this sport event, we are missing so many lesson.. really a waste of time!!

But i probably would show up this time.. i think.. XP..

butterfly mood

2006-07-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

friday, the 21 july, oh my... i am so happy...
in my school, i actually had a few crushes.. so that going to school to see them will be the motivaion..
den one of my crushes, his name is trendt..
he got a sexy look, becoz of his moustach..it's unique..
den during lunch time, i had to had in a booklet to mr brown whose offfice is in the LTC, den my school is currently renovating the rooftop so it had blocked some path..

map:
tuckshop...path to LTC...trendt+mates....water cooler... locker.... boys toilet....blocked path to LTC...
[one whole stretch of straight side walk..]

trendt and his mates often sit on the tables near the tuckshop, den to avoid walking pass them i walked the long way[the path near the boys toilet]. but who knows, when i reached i realize that the path was blocked.. and i had to walk straight down the side walk, pass by them...
den when i was walking by the locker, the principal mr neuman was walking towards trendt group from the tuckshop, den trendt said HEY hi-5.. and they did... so i was laughing of coz and trendt saw me laughing... den when i almost reach them, trendt came up to me and said hi-5, automaticly my hand rise and hi-5 with him..
den everyone said AYE...smilling with embarressment, i walked off.. lol.. heading to the LTC..

oh my..
i couldn't stop smilling, i was so hapie...
touched his hand.. think i wont wash my hands for the next couple of days and will wrap it up.. lol..

till now i am still feeling so happy when i think about it...
awww... lolx...

crazy winnie...!!

saturday..

2006-07-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

today i got a crap shift.. 4 hours work on a saturday.. u kidding me?

oh well but i still went to work.. better than nothing... from 10 - 2pm..

den bout 2 plus.. i was about to clock off.. den my manager came to ask if i will be able to stay longer..

so i asked: how long? till wat time?

and she say she need pple till 7pm.. but i could stay till 4 or 5 it's up to me.. den i say ok i will stay..

den 20 min later

she ask:

so wat time will u be staying till?

what time will u need me till?

we need pple untill 7..

well.. 7 it would be..

so u r staying until 7?

yup..

tats wonderful..

another manager shouted: thank you winnie..love you so much..

i stayed is bacause i wanna work more and earn more.. lol..

and oso i am working in back-area and not front.. that is why i stay back too..

school reopen liao

2006-07-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

haix.. holidays haven have enough rest den school reopen liao..
but nvm i spent my holiday wisely i reckon.. use most of the time to work.. so earned about nearly$600 in 2 weeks.. but den dono y my tax kenna tax so high sia.. so in the end only got bout $450 lidat..
eventually next tax return i will still get it back..
but all money nv save.. went online shoping.. spend nearly $200+ just on mps players and some ebook, watch N a fluid lighter.. woah chio sia.. i don smoke but i like the design so i brought it..
den went to the supermart brought lots of junk food and some meat etc.. den spent $89 liao.. so expansive sia..

first week of school den got assignment liao.. sian.. can die de lor..
den oso my term 2 exams result had made history..
fail 3 pass 3..
jialat sia.. my math B kept failing.. nah bei.. because not enough time lor.. if not comfirm pass de lor..
this time i tell my teacher liao.. maths paper i will require more time to complet.. he say can.. so muz pass..
den physic ma.. haix... cheat lor.. got 3 section... last section no one pass la.. 2 super difficult question..
den part 1 n 2.. haix.. rubbish nia..
wah kao.. term 3 i really mux do well liao.. i hope i can do it..
stress stress...

wooohooo

2006-07-07T10:59:00.000+08:00

yohoho.. finially got the mp3 liao..
damn cute sia.. color is dark purpish pink.. nice nice..
den super small lor.. 25mm*25mm*25mm..

if connie nv go out to the backyard to smoke, i probably would never find that parcle le..
kao.. one thing very weird is how they came into our backyard and place it there?
coz got gate de ma..
normally is if the thing too big to place in our letter box it will be handled to the post office for us to go there and claim de ma..
weird..
lolx..
but anyway.. got it liao very happy..
but there is some problem with it..
still dono how to use it yet.. chim..
now waiting for another usb mp3 player... keke...
dono how is the payment going...

oh o...

2006-07-04T10:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday i paid for another mp3, brought this because of the usb thingy..

den paid through paypal.. but the shit thing was enter the wrong email address and after paying den i realize i insert the wrong addy... so shit..

den i went to ebay and check.. it says payment is pending.. so i suppose it should be alright ba..

i hope so.. if not.. my money is gone...

T-T... stupid me...

KAO!!

2006-07-01T09:20:00.000+08:00

ytd work again ma..
den the scar had heal,
i was told to go down to the storage room to get some muffins and a bob of 12bag,
i went to get it, becoz the box of 12bag is kinda bulky and heavy,
so when i tried to carried, i actually stratch against the scar with the box,
and somehow, the top layer skin was peel off again..
and it stings alot.. i din not get a band aid, becoz it wont dry up and it will take a longer time to heal as it is moist..

i kinda like the scar de.. it's triangle shape like.. and it look like a fire flame burning.. coz it's redish ma.. lolx..

brought a world smallest mp3 player from e bay..
cant wait to get my hands on it sia... but it's only 1GB but still i think it's a beauty, so cute..
i like it...
it's affordable too much lower then the market price..
it a cube shape..
purple colour i think..
e-bay have a lot of mp3 that is cheap..
but it's generic brand..
oh well..
as long it's good and nice can liao..

today off.. gonna make use of this day to do something...

-.-

2006-06-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

burn my arm during work..on sunday..
comfirm there will be scar..
got a blister too..
blister gone..
when to work today..
accidently stratch the burn part..
skin is soft so it ripped of partly..
it stings.. so i took a band aid and paste over it to prevent germs getting in..
prevent infection..
some liquid is flowing out..
sign..
cold night today..
it's 10 degree now..
12.13am..
going to bed soon..
tomorrow it's another working day..
going out after work with jihee...
probably gonna get some clothes and shoes..
coz.. we'r goin shoppin...
fun?
hope so..
nitez..

who i am!! the negative part of me...

2006-06-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

fuc*...
in my blog, there will be no post about me saying about myself but only my feelings and how i feel and how others have treated me..
u guys get it?
u see, it's hard to see yourself.. only the third partie could sees it..
therefore it's not possible to describe how u acted, unless the act is intentionally..
as u know in one, most often think they are right and not wrong, tat's y there's an accupation called as LAYWERS..

and what's more i only blog when i felt terribly angry +
annoyed and when something makes me feel happy + joy..

but if u wanna know how am i as a person,
i will tell u..
if tat's really what u wanna know...

i complain bout my unhappiness often..
i'm easily annoyed
i'm petty
i'm stubborn
i'm impatience [depends on the situation]
i'm boring
i'm flirty?[with both sexs, if i like u i tends to be shy; gentle with speaking only!!]
i'm messy & i hate messy

well tat's all i could think of.. if u wanna add to my list.. u will be MORE than Welcome..

my life

2006-06-24T16:40:00.000+08:00

sleep..

work...

home...

sleep..

...

boring...

T-T!!

2006-06-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

i don wish to mention but..i had to..
in school.. how she look at me?
she walk pass me as if she din't see me..
u?
if we walk pass each other, we will have a small talk..etc..
she gave me a feeling that she felt ashamed for having me as her sister...
in school she act like a total shit person to me..
she seems proud..
we hardly have small talk in school..
i tried to talk to her, but she seems to be in a hurry like cant wait to quickly end the conversation with me..
also i know she don like me to be with or talk to her her friends..
but when i am with my friends she always wanna join in.. den kapo kapo..
do u know how that feels?

to be frank..
i don have much good friend..
but fortunately.. i gt one best sista..
becoz i am used to her character and had accepted her in me..
she too, accepted my weird character..
somehow i think.. she is the only one who have seen me through, the most of me...
the good and the bad...
the one who i talked most to, so far in my entire life other than u[connie]..

but still.. no one ever know how i feels and wad i'm thinking..
i bet you..
realize this year we din talk as much as before?
i dono y too.. jux that i don feel comfortable telling you stuff anymore..
ever though of y am i always in my room rather than sitting downstairs in the living room with u guys?
becoz i have thoughts.. many thoughts that i wanna share with someone. someone whom i am comfortable with.. but there's no one..

if u are aware, u would know i'm sensitive too..
i could feel if someone's attitude had change towards me and stuff..
my imagination runs wild easily too...

i cant control those feelings and the thinking i have...
so i'll just go with it..

somehow i really hate my life...
i'm weird..
tis is how i am..
.... whatever....

fuck..really hate this..

2006-06-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

peers, let'me ask a question..
WHAT IS WORDs OF ANGER??
words of anger is when u felt angry and jux nag about something but don meant it right?

there where a few times when i nagged something bout connie..
den shanie heard it..
often if nothing important, it would jux go in and out from the other end right?
but in her case NO..
she is a blabber mouth...
a Bitch.. Bloody hell..
recently i realize when connie cook.. she would ask and den compare it to my cooking..
so i asked her.. y do u wanna compare with me everytime?
den she spill the beans and said shanie told her that i am the one who like to compare..
in her face i ask her.. when i did i said it..
den she say once when i was complaining boit something..
den i say.. ok fine!! even if i did say it why do u have to tell connie what i say?
den she say: what.. like u never say my bad things to connie..
right away.. connie say.. well she never say anything bad about you..
she went speachless..

Y..Y do u have to be a 2 headed snake.. a backstabber?
r u trying to make me hate connie and connie to hate me?
this is so bitch.. she is really like one of those aussie.. always bitching..
i told her this..: shanie.. I really hate u..
i know it's harsh..
i tried to treat her well in many occasion before..
but she often take for granted..
when she is hungry.. she ask me to cook for her coz connie is not at home..
so i cooked for her...
den i do most of the washing and only kept a couple for her..
it's only a couple..
she wasn't doing anything but playing computer and i've got things to do..
den she complain to connie that i always ask her to wash all the things..

here in my blog..
i SweaR that i will never cook for her anymore..I SWEAR..
hungry? your business..

how fuck is this...

Bitch.. always trying to set me up...
she don seems to like me..
well.. if u don like me, i don care..
i can live without u...
u are nothing..
and oso we hardly talk..
so...
if u think and felt ashamed of having me as ur sister,
fine... don ever talk to me again..
unless something important...
otherwise, fuck off..

i know i am harsh and mean..
well put urself in my shoe..
and u Might know how i feel..

haix..
life really sucks...

i hate my life.

2006-06-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

last night i had a dream..[ hell care , who don dream]
this dream is weird.. the people who were in my dream is people who i often seen around but not talk to..
simpson & patrick carberry.. so weird..
it about me having a friendly fighting match with simpson in my house located in singapore.
den... blah blah... den me n patrick r like really close friend...
it' really a weird dream n pleasent dream..

btw it's only a dream.. it will never happen in reality..

somehow in life,if i could choose, i rather live in dreams then reality..
as dream is much more perfect n awesome..
yet reality is filled wit cruelity n so imperfect..

i hate my life..