`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

03 March 2007
7:24 PM

went down to simlim to visit Foon E-ma in the early afternoon, she looked weak compare to b4 because of lung cancer, her cancer was brought upon by taking in too much 2nd hand smoke.. poor thing, den she started to tell us tales about Onn E-ma.. when we are leaving soon, shanie mention about the pouch tat is hanging on to her, den she showed us the ball containing the substance 'kimo' which has a tube attached to it and the other end of the tube is inserted into somewhere under her right shoudler blade and ended at somewhere under her left shoulder blade.. her fingers no longer have nails the nails has melted, because of the chemical reaction.. felt so sad seeing her in this state.. so painful..

after visiting her, went to eat with mumy n shanie...
ordered a plate of chicken rice n chicken liver, fishball noodles, wanton soup n char siew noodles, and prawn noodles, and also a bowl of beancurd.. yum.. 3 pple eat so much.. lol.. coz feel like eating everything.. after eating when shop shop.. shanie wanted to get a pair of jeans n stuff.. from bugis shop to chinatown..

meet lionel at his workin place i went off at 8:30 tried ti hail a cab at china town.. Oh My God.. dono wad happen tat day, so many people waiting for cab and so many cab unavailable... waited and waited... i was late in the end.. because there wasn any taxi in sight at all, so i gave him a call.. den finally it came.. felt like dying..

it was 9 plus when i reach, worried tat he might be bored waiting even ask the taxi to drive faster.. but den he was playing cards with them, gambling.. so din felt tat bad.. keke..
after waiting for him to finish his game, we went to somewhere coz he need to get stuff, den me and the taxi driver waited and waited... it's like ages, the taxi driver was making noise, kept sighing.. so irritating.. Finally he appear with a smoke on his hand.. -.-...

den we went to east coast park.. whahahs.. jux knew he was bringing me to somewhere like a beach place becoz he asked me to wear something else instead of shoe ma.. lol.. aint i smart.. lol..

we walked, i was coughing and he's really so sweet, we went to 7 eleven i jux tot of getting a bottle of water, but he got me a bottle of 'golden flower' drink and a box of strepsills.. ain't he caring.. awww...my heart really melted becoz of him.. and wad he did for me.. so thoughtful..

went to the yellow tower, sat down.. he told me story about he and his ex gf whom he love deeply.. den realize tat he is really a very romantic guy full of suprises... aww~
we stood up enjoy the sound of the rushing sea, and the smoothing breeze tat blew along... the devil came along, it made us hug, and because of the enviroment it was really impossible tat we not kiss... lol...

it was late and he got to work tomorrow so he sended me home..

when i reach home, everything seems really like a dream, felt like some drama...
BECAUSE who on earth tat u Just know be so Concern about you, treat u so Nice, give u suprises, sent u home first den go home when the taxi fare is charging at midnight rate, staying up late wid u when he goto go and work the next day lehz??..
Answer me. is tat what u often see on drama??

i'm falling in love.. am i??

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

26 February 2007
11:50 PM

7 feb, went to my grandmom house..
den at night was actually going to meet kelvin for a movie de.. but who knows he was feeling unwell last minute.. he smsed me and apologise.. well felt kinda disappointed coz have been looking forward to this day..
since the date at night is cancelled so i'm so free.. and i really wanna watch the movie.. but no one to accompany me.. so too bad..
feeling sooo bored just den lionel smsed me.. felt happy tat instance coz at least i've got someone to accompany le..
den chatted and chatted, told him i feel like going for a movie.. den he say i am trying to date him.. hahahs... oh well i wouldn't deny it.. hahahs..
so end up meeting him.. he was afraid tat i would be late so he kept calling.. mmm..
damn it was difficult to hail a cab at tat time..

finally got one.. den went down.. the driver pass by somewhere tat is infested with indians... and i thought simlim was located somewhere there.. because seriously i do not know how to go to simlim!! never been there.. sound kuku i know..but luckly it's not there otherwise i will ask the driver to sent me back to tampines.. hahahs.. den reach le the driver drop me off at the bus stop stand.. felt pressure when i alight everyone was starring at me.. scary...
den quick quick go look for lionel.. really felt inscure walking alone at night in a place which i've never been to and the worst thing is tat the building was so quiet and a few indian guys appear.. they really freak me out.. den there is this indian guy who tried to approach me, kao dash to the washroom immediately.. Eww..
den quickly walk around and try my luck to look for the shop where lionel is working in..
i spot some shop but wasn't sure but there was a feeling tat says lionel was in tat shop so i took a peep and true enough he was in there.. hahahs.. felt relieve tat instance..
went into the shop, felt uneasy thou.. den waited for him.. dono wad he was doing..
oh well den we took a bus down to cine leisure..

while waiting for the bus kelvin called to apologise again and say tat he really like to meet me but is feeling sick.. oh well wad to do.. meet him again? maybe next year ba..
den chatted wid lionel, shock to hear his age coz he do not look his age..
the bus came.. he was feeling cold.. hahahs..

b4 we walk to cine, he had a smoke, i felt tat he is considerate enough to actually make the effort to move to the other side of me so tat the smoke wont blew towards me.. he leave a very good impression.. Appearence: dressing was casual, presentable.. neat and tidy.. wonder how will he look like if he spiked his hair..Character: gentlemen & caring hahahs..
after the smoke we moved on to cine leisure.. we looked at the screen to c what movie was available.. but he seems no interest in watching movie at all.. haix.. tot i could catch a movie tat night.. but too bad.. haix..

den instead we walked around.. den went to BK buy a drink take a seat.. and chatted..
tat moment was suprising.. he barely know me but within hours he could tell me what r my interest and favourites.. and to be honest, and no offence, he know me better than zhu..
i was totally amazed..
i totally enjoy the conversation with him...

we kept walking here and there, suddenly he said give me ur hand, so i gave.. he held my hand.. keke.. he said he wanted to see my suprised look.. but somehow it din suprise me at all bcoz he asked for my hand instead of holding it suddenly.. lol..but still, felt nice we he held my hands..
we walked to somewhere near takashimaya i think.. den we sat down..
chatted.. turned my head n saw 2 bunglar.. eww, suddenly a force was grabbing my head.. lionel grab my head and kiss me.. oh oh oh~~ i tried to push away, but he's strong, so erm.. go with the flow lor.. hahahs... i felt so hot.. it was burning inside.. he laughed at me because i look so pai sei..
so mean.. lol.. awhile later, we kiss again.. den he sent me home after...
reached home.. took out the neoprint and give it a good look, seriously, he is really so cute and good looking.. whahahs... it's my type ba..

la la la...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

pictures taken on my birthday and a couple taken on my first visit to chillz..

Nie n Zhu new personal maid

me n my chivas mix green tea.. act cool.. wearing Jh sunglass.. heehee

Eat Clorets no Stinky Breath.. heehee

Me N Zhu.. taken in Chillz Toilet...

Those Crazy poses...

we three...Buddies & sista(?) forever...!!

Com'on BIG BIG SmileEE... =D

Tat's freaky..!!

it must be the photographer tat look freaky!!! kekeke

fighting over a girl.. whahahahsss...

Stupid Faces.. hahahss

WHAHAHAHSSSS>> Cant Stop Laughing!!!

so fair so tann..

woo~~ threesome.....

3 horrible model posing..

kenna hit still so happy.. Whahahsss

At marina South.. face so chubby after swallowing all those food...

wad r we lookin at? Did Xiao Qiang pass by??

Admire me ba!! lol...

check tat out.. tat guy stepped on some dung!! lol..

me and my favourite relaxin bar..

Feeling contented.. *(look at the messy table)

yummy..

hahahs.. caught u eating on camera... eat properly don spoil image oh!!

so windy tat night..

what happen??

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

me, Ferlicia & zhu taken in the ladies

me n ferlicia.. taken at the Mrt entrance...

iN Kbox...

The SupriSe... Thanks Guys...

Nice hor...

the new couple... heehee

Pris, Ben, Zhu, Ferlicia ... iN Kbox

yummY..

Mi in Ben's addias jacket.. it smells good.. hahahahasss..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

After considering they decided to come along.. den meet jackson at marina South.. din expect him to reach so early..and he has been waiting for us for about 30min+.. he called us when we r at cine leisure and told me tat he will be late.. so we took our time.. and when i reached he was still joking tat he is late, den say he reach and stuff, he was confusing me..
when we reach we saw him sitting down at a corner, waiting.. lol..
den there came an uncle, he's trying to pull customer, well too bad coz i've decided to go to "zhen fa" and i will stick to the decision...no matter what..
den jack got abit bored and told the uncle tat we've got friend at "zhen fa" and we are getting a discount, the uncle belived and say he'll charge us$10 instead of $12 and there's transport provided too, got suprised.. lol..it was a good bargain but no thanks. coz we r still sticking to our desicion..
reach le.. woo hungry~~find a table, settle down and get our food..
Some time later, me and jack decided to get some prawn.. den while getting some prawns the man ask oif we want the crab as well, den mmm ok why not.. after tat den i realize it was too freaky to wash, i dare not touch it, it was dead but it limbs r still moving.. so horrible.. and jack dare to touch it but don know how to wash it.. so i start looking around to c if there's anyone who know how to wash, there was this a hot guy who is washing the crab so i asked him if he want to give us a hand.. he say it was alright at the begining den after asking another time he agree to wash it for us..
when he was washing, jack told me tat he take his hat off me.. lol.. den i told jack in a joking way, : if u weren't here i would probably get his no. and date him out ah.. lol..
we went back to our table.. thank him for washing it for us..
when we return to our table, they told us tat a prawn jumped to another table and they used a tray to cover it.. i din believe so i remove the tray n c, gosh!! the table was pretty far from ours wonder how it manage to jump tat far.. den it gave a little jump when i lift the tray it gave me a shock so without thinking much i use the tray to hit the prawn "bang" OMG den i come to my sense and realize i was being an idiot.. so embarassing.. pple were lookin.. oh my oh my..
returning with crabs in our hands they asked who kill and wash it so i say the man.. and a hot guy wash it for us.. so i ws looking around for the guy.. cant c him.. so continue with the food, but i was still trying my luck looking around to c where is he.. to my suprise i finally saw him when ferlicia moved he was only a table away from ours.. and we smiled... hahahs...
at tat moment i was think if i wan to get his no. but in mind it says tat i am leaving in 5 days time so no point... den i din think much about it le.. but still did kinda look at him.. no harm to look right.. hahahs..
it was about 12am le so pris, ben and ferlicia got to take their leave to work le.. really appreciate their company and thanks for the cake... ^.^.. did had a great time with u guys..
it's now me jack and zhu le.. so we finish up the food, realize tat he was still there.. the shop was closing le.. but they are not leaving yet neither are we.. to my suprise, tat hottie asked me to go over, but he was with his friend and i'm shy so i'm not going over.. and i asked him to come over instead and he did so i did walk a fair bit towards him as well.. he asked for my no. it's fated.. so i gave,, but felt weird when i saw his wallpaper.. he and his gf.. den he say can be friends ma..sounds true.. so oh well..den went to the wash room ro clean up, wash our hands anddo a little bit of grooming and there we go "Chillz".. in the cab he texted me.. =) den jack and zhu guessed it was him.. hahas.. din wan to be anti with my friends so i reply him rather slow..
when to chillz.. step in, such Coincidence they were playing the bdae song.. it's like specially for me but no.. it was someone bdae too.. hahas.. luckly JH reserve a table for me le.. coz it's kinda full there..and there's a pool table le!! yeah.. since i haven been playing it for ages so me and JH intend to have a game.. but halfway through jack took over for me.. coz i'm gonna sing wid zhu.. den after singing i have a match wid jack.. my pool buddy..
use to play pool wid him last dec almost everyday when pavilion was not close down but now.. shucks.. pavilion close bedok closes as well what the hell lor..
we have a friendly match.. i won.. den there was a crazy man.. really crazy.. kept disturbing jack den even told him tat he was being bully by me n zhu.. wad the.. -.-"
after pool we played dice.. honestly i think i pick it up really fast and is good at it.. lol..
opss!! din drank much tat night, only manage to finish up a bottle of chivas.. tat was really little..
den we waited for JH to knock off it was only 3 plus den so we hang around a little, took heaps of photo, crazy pose.. lol.. Bet tat taxi driver who parked there was being entertained by us..
den JH sent us all home..
really had a great time.. bonus bonus...get to know a new friend too...
heehee...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

woo turning 18 le.. suddenly felt tat i am so old.. always hoping to turn 18 as soon as possible so tat i could buy stuff and enter the pub legally and but when that day came, it struck me and i start to realize tat i've got to save and plan for my future le..
Oh My...
meet zhu, pris, ferlica n ben at orchard de.. but den unfortunately i went to stayover at a friend house, i left his house abit late and Damn i din know it's so tough to hail a cab at his place..
so i called them N asked then to go ahead first without me.. den they went to the kbox first..
i was late for bout an hour.. heehee.. felt bad.. coz they were working the day b4 and was tired.. but instead of them being late i was late.. keke.
Reach le.. went in to look for them..
kbox got some new beverage and it tasted mmm.. it was not tat bad.. for some..
halfway through, drank too much liquid le so need to run to the ladies.. zhu accompany me..
den somehow after visiting the ladies we intend to walk around, becoz i saw a cabinet filled with liquor and was kinda interested, so looked around at the same time i saw a fridge, den i told zhu tat i din know tat kbox actually prepare bdae cakes..and she say the cakes taste awful.. lol
coz the previous year i din know they have cakes so i baked one for zhu for her bdae.
and now need not bake le..heehee save the hassle le..
den went back to the room le..
to my suprise they actually brought a cake for me..
and it was a beauti..
felt so touch.. really wanna say thank guys..
so they sang bdae song, they actually dedicated a bdae song for me, but somehow the version was different so they sang it without the music..
den make a wish for the year..and blew off the candles and ta dah.. im 18 le..
we end the session at 7, ben pris and ferlicia was still considering if they are going to marina south or not... so think think think....

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

25 February 2007
3:03 PM