`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

29 September 2006
7:13 PM

today is moi brother birthday..really wonder how is he doing le..
anyway hope he is feeling fine... i kinda miss him.. those day..
went clubbing, pool, tok cock.. really nice.. oso if piggy were to come along, gosh it will be like fantanstic..
i really miss them.. have been missing pple who i hang out with often recently..
steven.. zhu say she saw steven, at tat moment i realize his existance den i start missing him as well..
feel like seeing him.. the feeling tat i had a crush on him is still tangling in me somewhere...
the feeling of excitement, sadness and happiness is all mixed up.. it's not good yet it's not bad either..
now, sitting on the chair blogging while thinking of those memories really gives me a urge of wanting to fly back immediately.. how i really miss u guys.. T.T

anyway jasmine came to my hse today and taught me to read some notes, and the fingering of the guitar, it's wasn't as easy as i thought.. it's complicated and confusing.. it probably be time consuming if i really want to master the skill of playing that thing..
den we play badminton.. sweat a little and we chatted den headed back to my house and continue with the lesson and not long later, she went home, walked her to the traffic light near the coles village.. it's sunny today.. nice weather..

i think i am really putting on weight.. i tried to exercise yesterday, but end up creating bruises all over, got a big patch of bruise on my knee cap and all over my knuckles..

i tried lifting weight, using both hands, den i realise that it is not a very good ideal, because my right hand is naturally stronger than my left so when lifting the weight, my right hand tends to use more strength than my left and it end up building more muscle on my right and not my left.

OMG i am really putting on weight, what can i do.. i seems to be lazier.. it's so bad.. HELP.. some advice pleaseee..??

working tomorrow, opening, have to reach city by 7am.. ahh tired...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

28 September 2006
4:48 PM

i got my pay, feeling happy.. i ask shanie to meet me in the city after work and i brought her to the korean resturant and eat, den when shopping, brought her 3 tops and 2 for myself, it wasn't a very nice day, it was showering.. so we thought tat it would be nice to buy an umberalla since we've got none.. den we went to priceline and start to shop around.. i want to be tan.. tried tanning myself the other time, but i got burn instead.. so i start to shop for a sun tan lotion.. it's coconut oil one.. eww.. but it will do i guess don have any other choice from the stall.. and oso got a new anti dandruff shampoo tat is advertise in the tv recently and shanie bugged me to buy for her. i was suprise, i tot it would be expansive because it's neutrogena but it turn out to be cheap.. den after getting those stuff we went to the korean market.. yoyo.. again.. the small little basket tat could cost u a bomb..got some packet drinks, junk food and more junk food..

it was still showering.. we took a bus and went home..

in the resturant there is like a no. metal tag on the table.. den when my food came, shanie hit the tag and it was like so loud.. and her face turn redish.. kekeke..
when shopping for clothes, the changing room was all full so we were queeing and waiting, while waiting there is this impatience women who actually went in between the changing tent and start changing there.. i was like What The Hell man.. so disgusting.. free show.. ewww... no thanks..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

24 September 2006
5:36 PM

went to work today..as now it's holiday for sure i'll work heaps..
i finish at 4.30 today and fernando asked me to wait for him so we could take the same bus home.. so i did..
den after, we chatted alot..
and i got this feeling that if he were to say in aust forever, i will go for him..
i enjoy his company, i feel natural.. good feeling..
and he is nice too..
but it's a pity that he is going back to brazil in dec.. and i will never get to c him again.. T.T
oh well at least i get to meet and know him.. and that's call fate..

ahh mac.. there is something like a competition going on that 20 crew who get the most points, get to go to dreamworld for free..
but somehow, the list of crew is not choosen base on the points but on who the manager favours..
so some really new crew get to go too because they are out going, and some old crew get neglected..
it's so not fair that BEN did not get to go.. and i dono Y.. he is super big size, however he is harworking and oso swift in working so i don c y he don get to go..
poor ben, he muz felt bad.. the manager who choose were mel and chelsee, their relationship with ben seems close but how can they do this to him..
anyway i am one of the choosen one and i get to go.. but somehow i am kinda both excited and frighten, becoz the rides far more higher compare to the escape theme park in singapore.. but if i miss this time, the next time if i want to go, it will cost me about $60 bucks and + travelling lehx??.. oso it takes about 1h+ to reach there, it's a long journey.. this crew trip include travelling, entrance ticket, and refreshments so it will be a shame to miss out.. i don even have to pay a single cent sia.. kekeke..

working with nick today, i like to work with him but i hate too.. like becoz he is swift hate becoz we are both swift and he tends to take advantage of me and bludge alot.. wat a bum.. worst thing is that while bludging, he curry flavours the manager so, enjoying the flavour, the manager of coz would like to continue the conversation.. so i am doing all the work.. den after the manager will come and bootlick me.. which annoyes me.. a little praise is fine but too much is gross..always, winnie u r an excllent worker.. winnie u r the best.. but lucky he is easy going so as a manager he is consider not bad le..

but still nick he is a backstabber, always complaining that he don like who and who.. for godsake la.. please realize that not everyone have to please u and work ur way..u r no better too, always tried to act like a trainer or worst a manager be bossy kns la.. OSO.. if i not wrong he muz be the one who spreads nonsensecial rumors.. always saying that who and who is lesb or gay.. so shit de.. shut tha hole up la.. so crap..

reading her blog is one of my daily routine if i were to go onto the net.. read her blog today, den i realize.. i have never seen a love so strong.. she is so devoted.. it's both a good and bad thing.. but still she is my mate, seeing her sad, makes me sad too, it's juz instinctively.. but i really would advice her that if she ever come accross a guy who loves her and who seems to have a better future and treat her good, as well as if she loves him back, go for it.. don hesitate..
no matter what i say, it's still her choice, so i only can wish her good luck..

Ps.. don be sad hao ma.. i like to c the cheerful side of u.. bet not only i am in love with ur smile others as well..
smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile... :D

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*