`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

24 June 2006
4:40 PM

sleep..

work...

home...

sleep..

...

boring...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

i don wish to mention but..i had to..
in school.. how she look at me?
she walk pass me as if she din't see me..
u?
if we walk pass each other, we will have a small talk..etc..
she gave me a feeling that she felt ashamed for having me as her sister...
in school she act like a total shit person to me..
she seems proud..
we hardly have small talk in school..
i tried to talk to her, but she seems to be in a hurry like cant wait to quickly end the conversation with me..
also i know she don like me to be with or talk to her her friends..
but when i am with my friends she always wanna join in.. den kapo kapo..
do u know how that feels?

to be frank..
i don have much good friend..
but fortunately.. i gt one best sista..
becoz i am used to her character and had accepted her in me..
she too, accepted my weird character..
somehow i think.. she is the only one who have seen me through, the most of me...
the good and the bad...
the one who i talked most to, so far in my entire life other than u[connie]..

but still.. no one ever know how i feels and wad i'm thinking..
i bet you..
realize this year we din talk as much as before?
i dono y too.. jux that i don feel comfortable telling you stuff anymore..
ever though of y am i always in my room rather than sitting downstairs in the living room with u guys?
becoz i have thoughts.. many thoughts that i wanna share with someone. someone whom i am comfortable with.. but there's no one..

if u are aware, u would know i'm sensitive too..
i could feel if someone's attitude had change towards me and stuff..
my imagination runs wild easily too...

i cant control those feelings and the thinking i have...
so i'll just go with it..

somehow i really hate my life...
i'm weird..
tis is how i am..
.... whatever....

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

23 June 2006
8:43 PM

peers, let'me ask a question..
WHAT IS WORDs OF ANGER??
words of anger is when u felt angry and jux nag about something but don meant it right?

there where a few times when i nagged something bout connie..
den shanie heard it..
often if nothing important, it would jux go in and out from the other end right?
but in her case NO..
she is a blabber mouth...
a Bitch.. Bloody hell..
recently i realize when connie cook.. she would ask and den compare it to my cooking..
so i asked her.. y do u wanna compare with me everytime?
den she spill the beans and said shanie told her that i am the one who like to compare..
in her face i ask her.. when i did i said it..
den she say once when i was complaining boit something..
den i say.. ok fine!! even if i did say it why do u have to tell connie what i say?
den she say: what.. like u never say my bad things to connie..
right away.. connie say.. well she never say anything bad about you..
she went speachless..

Y..Y do u have to be a 2 headed snake.. a backstabber?
r u trying to make me hate connie and connie to hate me?
this is so bitch.. she is really like one of those aussie.. always bitching..
i told her this..: shanie.. I really hate u..
i know it's harsh..
i tried to treat her well in many occasion before..
but she often take for granted..
when she is hungry.. she ask me to cook for her coz connie is not at home..
so i cooked for her...
den i do most of the washing and only kept a couple for her..
it's only a couple..
she wasn't doing anything but playing computer and i've got things to do..
den she complain to connie that i always ask her to wash all the things..

here in my blog..
i SweaR that i will never cook for her anymore..I SWEAR..
hungry? your business..

how fuck is this...

Bitch.. always trying to set me up...
she don seems to like me..
well.. if u don like me, i don care..
i can live without u...
u are nothing..
and oso we hardly talk..
so...
if u think and felt ashamed of having me as ur sister,
fine... don ever talk to me again..
unless something important...
otherwise, fuck off..

i know i am harsh and mean..
well put urself in my shoe..
and u Might know how i feel..

haix..
life really sucks...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

last night i had a dream..[ hell care , who don dream]
this dream is weird.. the people who were in my dream is people who i often seen around but not talk to..
simpson & patrick carberry.. so weird..
it about me having a friendly fighting match with simpson in my house located in singapore.
den... blah blah... den me n patrick r like really close friend...
it' really a weird dream n pleasent dream..

btw it's only a dream.. it will never happen in reality..

somehow in life,if i could choose, i rather live in dreams then reality..
as dream is much more perfect n awesome..
yet reality is filled wit cruelity n so imperfect..

i hate my life..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

18 June 2006
9:59 AM

exams..
no hope..
comfirm fail all..
guarantee.
maths paper not enough time..
3 pages, last page all question never do..
plus some from the front..
not fair, international student get to extand their time and do it in the office
and that allows them to cheat.. they ask for answer, and check the book when they proceed from the hall to the office..
stress..
biology.. maybe i can pass.. coz i complete paper.. able to do most..
den english.. don even talk bout it.. that boring subject.. either os just pass or fail..
den physic.. probably fail..
dono Y.. even if i know how to do will oso still fail..
bad luck i guess..
everything is over after wednesday the last test hospitality practical..
baking a cake.. hope my cake wont sink.. hhahahahas..

Shag!! T_T!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Fuck shit sia..
bloody neighbour..
cheebye la.. so damn inconsiderate!!
at night 10 plus liao still turn on the TV like no body business..
den Knn yesterday tried to complete my engish essay.
den the fucking vibration and the sound distracted me so much,
threw a book on the wall so it will bang and they could hear..
i hate those wall.. so hollow..
can hear everything..
even with my ear piece on..
Fuck Shit nia..
manger like PIG..
so early sleep!!
Damn Fed up Sia...
Assholes...
i hate my bloody neighbours,
everyday pple shout shout..
bang bang.. bong bong bong..
machum like monkies..
go stay Zoo la..

Arggg... Hot Hot Hot!!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*