`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

05 June 2006
1:46 PM

really having a big headache.. feeling so not good.. feel cold outside and hot inside..
i'm sick of my sisters.. i jux don understand why i am so impatience towards them.. or rather i felt that they often take my kindness as weakness.. asked shanie to accompany me to buy some grocery.. guess what she say.. i don wan.. Excuse me. y am i going to buy grocery? are they for me myself and i only? NO!! fuck shit man.. is bcoz of u that's y i am going to get something.. if not i reali don care.. coz.. i will never go hungry.. if i am hungry i would jux simply pick up the phone, 1/2 hour later my food is here...
what's more the grocery allowance have long ago used up and now i am using my hard earn $ to pay for ur food.. and u still wanna say i don wan.. fine den.. don complain tat u r hungry to me ever again..
coz tat's not my fuckin business..

i'm in a very moody sprit today.. i don feel happy at all but rather annoyed..

do i look that terrible or ugly? is it tat bad too look like me or be my twin!!

i am really getting to dislike her.. she is jux like a clone of a bitchy aussie.. she hugs pple who she dislike n gave fake smiles, she hang out with those slutS and come home complaining how shit they are, she drinks becoz her friend started the trend, she want friends to sleep over like how others does, she wont't reject hi bye friends for sleep over. her friends wears a hairband she want it too..she just simply wants everything that her friend have!!it's fine to be a little like them but she is juz over doing it!

she spent all her allowance n daddy haven sent us the allowance, she is going for a sleepover, she asked for $50 allowance in advance, i gave it to her. she borrowed my phone and msg her fren asking if her dad would help her to get vodka crusier, 6 bottles at about $15, why mux it be alcoholic?? i asked her, she say her friend said to get their own drink.. hellow.. me no idiot.. unless ur friend is one big bloody stupid idiot, fancy knowing that u r underage and wan u to get alcohol, it's u who wants it.. becoz u think it's cool..

i don understand what is going on with the cool thing, what is so cool about drinking and smoking? u drink is because for the fun feeling of dizzness & the taste and not showing others ' look at me i am drinking and i am not drunk'. u smoke is bcoz of stress relieve or the feel of it and not to show others how cool u are to smoke at such young age.. bcoz when pple look at u they will only say so young wanna learn to smoke.. hopeless.. and NOT wow u r so cool..
and luckily she only drink, if she smokes.. she know she is gonna be facing long hours of nagging and couselling n of coz not to miss out a lecture from her closes link..

really dissapointed in her little bit..
she spoil my favourite bag, but somehow i din show any anger towards her instead i say oh ya i know, it's okay.. it's already spoiled no point scolding.. it's really a rare reaction from me.. is' it becoz i don care anymore, and realize something?? i really dono, so confused..

but for sure.. i think i am starting to get interested in learning.. becoz somehow i think i am kinda stupid n need more knowledge.. knowledge from my interest.. tat's a good thing..

i really wanna get the black magic book.. but it's kinda expansive i think it's about $50, i oso wanna get the hypnosis set book which cost $100.. it's expansive but i really wanna read it.. coz i think it is interesting.. but.. i think i will get either one.. and it would be the magic one i think.. haix..

the way i handle my $ is terrible.. i don seems to be saving at all.. T.T...
tomolo going to jihee house and stay.. hey house family went on a trip to somewhere and she dono what to cook, coz she dose not wan to eat the same thing everyday.. so i will be cookin at her hse tomolo.. my speciallity: Grill oyster chicken.. yum yum.. don think i will get sick of eating it.. taste is so irrisistable.. keke..
don go drooling after reading my blog..!! lolx..

well this is my feeling N story for today.. but it only covers half the day.. and the other half of the day, guess nothing interesting will happen jux gonna cook dinner etc.. so..blog another day again den..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

lolx.. today i woke up early early and went to work as well as usual la.. den i reached home at about 5+ because of the stupid bus.. they change bus stop and the bus is like slower man.. so irritating.. den i cooked dinner.. grill chicken N beef porridge.. ymm.. smell sososossosososos good... den they ate.. shanie like the chicken... so i gave one of mine to her..i never eat.. coz not hungry so i put it in the fridge and tot of bringing it to school tomorrow.. but.. haix.. connie eat it all.. so only left 1 chicken.. boring.. but anyway.. i think my cooking have surely improved.. lolx.. food is tasting better n better.. lolx.. den i should be tired.. but no weird i am not.. so i did my Physic assginment which is due tomorrow, and all my biology review question .. and now i am here bloggingg... and the time is 3:58am.. haven sleep yet.. and tomolo got school.. think i will be a panda tomolo.. hahahas... haix.. dono what is connie thinking.. she haven been going to school last whole week and she don intend to go tomolo too.. that is why she is out with her friends... haix.. really dono what is she thinking..!!

but anyway i have finish my assignment and homework.. except for the english exam poem essay practice.. n some self practice maths to do.. other than that i am all good.. but exam is coming in 8 days.. god.. i am scare.. so not prepare.. but i will be preparing for it soon.. coz i really have to passs...

geez!! lolx.. i going to sleep liao... so tired le.. (-.-)zzZ

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

ytd was sat.. i went to work as usual.. den lata after work i look at my hp i got a msg n a couple miss call from sam so i called back.. hahhas.. he ask me to go to the school basket ball court to look for him.. For wad i was wondering.. i still got so many assignments to do and + i am so tired.. but still i went home n change and went to the BBcourt.. den he was playing alone.. he was actually having fun man.. lolx. don understand wad is so fun bout bb.. lolx.. only a ball n a basket.. lolx.. den we play like competition lidat lor.. of coz he will win.. he often play BB.. den + he let mi.. lolx.. although i win but he will win for sure if he didn't let me.. den after he came to my house.. den taught me maths.. the Logarthims.. god.. it was alright but somehow i will still stuck.. den he teach me.. but somehow could c tat he is like running out of patience liao... den i got so mad.. lolx.. den i don even wanna tok to him neither did i look at him.. i faced my back at him.. lolx.. den lata.. long story... but still everything is alright in the end..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*