these few days... dono wat happen kept dreaming about my home.. i dream about my mummy and daddy.. and oso my sista.. going to the beach glazing at the pathetic countable stars.. lolx.. although the skies are different but i would rather glaze the sky in Spore.. coz there is someone who will watch it with me and i wont be lonely.. i miss my mummy cooking.. miss her food... when i return last year, she was busy workin n we seldom meet too can u imagine? staying in the same house but hardly met? haix.. i reali hate her to work.. coz she seems to chane to another person after she work.. remember when i was young, my family was so restricted to vouglarities so strict.. but now is different.. i don speak it at home.. but this visit, i actually heard it coming out from my mom.. so so so shock..and she don have time to cook too... haix.. how i miss the past.. they way they look after us, showered us with care n love... spending time together in the mall and shop for grocery.. how fun.. but not anymore...
haix.. time is different now.. everything changes.. nothing is kept the same.. nothing..
but i still miss home..
haix.. sometimes i reali wonder wat is the use of havin those friend for? & wad is their motive for being my fwen?
getting sick and tired of school.. after the depart of min, i realize tat school now is reali STUDYIN and tat's it. English class.. sianz.. there is tis 2 pple.. who english is nt as gd as me, well i am no better compared to the caucasians...but one thing, at least i still do listen fully with my heart!! taking down notes furiously.. now doin poetry and we have to find the figurative in the poetry eg, simile, metaphore, hyperbole etc.. den when teacher is tell us which stanza is wad, u have to write down.. but after every english lesson this girl[C] will always wan to borrow my notes de.. she tot of borrowing it for the weekends somemore.. den wad i do..i oso need to study lehx.. need to know wad the poetry is toking about.. god.. why cant she jux pay full attention.. she say she cant get it down bcoz she cant spell.. wad the hell.. don need to be exact, give the words a code like metaphore [M] etc.. geez..
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i dono what has gone into me.. i jus don like lending her my notes.. coz i write so many things it like my own work too.. den lend her copy.. coz during block exam, this notes is wat we have to use to help in our essay writing.. somehow i think this semester i am competing with them.. they get help from some pple who they kept a secret, and i don.. i do it all by myself.. since u always get help from 'them' don ask me.. coz i felt so unfair and jealous when they steal my ideas and get higher marks than me.. *pple who read my blog, don judge me by saying i'm selfish, ask urself, put urself in my shoes.. if they always copy ur notes, read ur draft, ask u heaps of question as if they know nothing, and when they finish their 'product' it's so much better than yours and get much better marks than u how would u feel?bet u will feel exactly the same as me, or even worst.!!
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lastly i Am No DICTIONARY.. i am Not!! u have a electronic dictionary, use it, make use of it.. and not forget to bring it often and then as me the meaning of those word.. and even though if u don Bloody Fuckin understand the work ask the teacher not me.. If i were to be a Dictionary, i wont be in this fuckin School..but in some private school or wateva..!!i am no genius Pls..
Pls.. i realy hope she could pay more attention to class and not daydreaming, if she wan to daydream pls dream throughout and not wake up from her dream halfway, and start to distract me by asking me how to do tis n tat, n make me miss out part of the procedure..!!
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i do not have so much time like u to do catch up on schoolwork.. my only revesion time is school hours.. and after school is either work or my own time to do my own stuff.. my time is so limit..
this is the price i am paying to fufill my aim and dreams for this year holiday!!
