take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
22 July 2005
11:17 AM
today lunch time i went home with connie den return to school late le, pple oledi in class room and i was late for bout 20 min lolx... den i go to the class and tell the teacher i tummy ach... he actually believe... whahah... funie sia... woah today veri tired sia... last night bake something yummy called the "merrang" i think...and make short crust pastries putting strawberries and ice-cream in it... bake till about 12 plus den slp... tired... i muz learn to make yummy stuff coz wen i return to spore i wan to make for my besta friend to eat... coz i promise her b4... so cannot break it... Moi "GirlFren" juz wait 4 moi return ba...
ya... i do know u... but not in the sense of fully knowing you...but juz part of u... coz i don even know myself fully... u too, nt sure whether u know mi or not.. haix... probaly we both never change jux tat i think too much le ba... u have to know... i really treat u as my damn best friend, and i don wish to lose you..tat's y, when we don have much thing to say le, i will got a feeling tat we might not be as good as b4 le... u wan to know moi life here mi too.. but u always nv tell me... haix...
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
21 July 2005
1:28 PM
Frankly speaking, i tot i know u well in the past but after i came over to aust, i realize tat don really know u well enough like wat i tot i did, how about u how well do u know mi? can u tell mi? in ur blog u can still say u not gonna think about it...okie FinE... but firstly do u agree tat other than gossip or mi talking on the phone all the while we got nothing to say le...??
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
20 July 2005
1:37 PM
wat am i? who the hell am i to her?
wanna to know something ask mi go find out and den cal to tell her and gossip bout other pple business... i don mind doing this... but is it tat other than gossiping bout other pple business we've got nothing to say anymore...??? i'm very vexed bout this... everything has become more complicated and confusing... things are changing, it's not the same as the past anym0re...
why is this happening... am i thinking tooo much and being tooo sensitive or wat?
...FucK...F-u-c-k..FucK...
...My LiFe is messed up...
i hate this... i hate tat... i hate everything i have now...
*Breakdown le...(t_t)...*
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
19 July 2005
3:28 PM
sometimes i really do wonder why am i here... i don understand Y... often i got a thinking tat i'll hope i'll die eariler...coz there is nothing precious or wonderful to make mi feel like wantin to stay and live for long... life is filled with bumps, not smooth...
...FrienDz...
making use of one another,
backstabbing each other,
taking advantages of each another...
...LovE...
unrequited love
often never last long
triangles love
....LiFe...
no money
no TruE love
no True friendz
WaT the Hell is all this... FUCK OFF everything juz sucks onli...
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
True FrIenDs?? wat's tat?...
i don really know wat does True Friend means....
coz i seriously think that i don have any...
when i first came to aust, i used to call her bout 5-10 times a month toking for at least 1 hour to 2h. but now i just called her for bout less than 5 times a month, chatting on the phone for less than an hour...
...our friendship seems to be drifting futher and futher...
i called her one day...we have nothing to said at all... and she gave me a feeling tat she dosen wanna to tok to mi at all.. call her for bout 45mins, all the while i was the one who is toking, sometimes there's no respond like i am toking to myself, or suddenly she would tok to her sibling, and it seems tat she is not listening to mi. i really feel so upsad and fustrating..
i always think tat she is hiding something from mi, not wanting to tell mi anything about her life,and do not treat mi as a veri best friend like i did, i told her lots of secreats but she don...she is always so quiet on the phone.. i always buy the card when i get my allowance, but when i think of calling her, and on the second though; we do not have anything to say at all..
and i think the onli reason we R together is because we go out together often, and we are just onli shopping partners but not
Real True Good Friend who stay by your side all the time...
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*