`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

26 April 2008
12:26 PM

omg, kuini mom's is unbelieveable.
one night me and kuini slp on the train and missed the stop.
we din expect her mom to come pick us up.
we intend to wait 30mins for the next train to go home,
so kuini call her mom to tell her.
and her mom said:" how can u fucking miss the station. u better fucking come down on the next fucking station. i was waiting for u at the fucking station"
geez how educated [sarcarstically]
seriously there is no need to be so rude to ur own child even thou she is not ur real bone and flesh.
when we got off the next station, she was honking at us.
wad a bitch??!!
in the car we kept quiet, she she start giving us a lecture.
saying tat we should have apologised.

yes we should have, but we wont.
we would if she wasnt tat rude, swearing like no body business.
thinking tat she is very high in society,
she say tat our job is useless. well its still a job!!
plus we r still young not like her an old saggy and flabby ginger, we have plenty of time to find a good job so wad's the rush!!
she is so extremly rude, we dint argue with her, we kept silent, so she look like idiot.
when we got home kuini went in the room and she cried.
sigh, sometimes i really pity her.
her mom is such a bitch.
her mom was angry because her bf was waiting for her and she was planing to go to his,
but she told kuini tat she was tired tats y she got so angry. whore.
after we got home her mom went disappear with her BF.

so angry if she wasnt kuini mom and tat im goin to hers, i'll probably argue with her.
so rude. lucky kuini is not like her so ill manner.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

a continuously of bad luck.
feeling so tired in the morning, trying to wake up for work.
kinda din happen, so i missed the first train,
'its ok I'm still early if i catch the 55 past train'
reach the train station 10 mins early.
it announce: the train will be 10 mins late..
Great.
10 mins its okay..
after 10 mins, it announce again:
the train will be 6 mins late.
and by the time it get to the station it was 25 mins late.
5 mins more to the next train scheduled.
so angry
and i was 18 mins late for work.

after work order ice cream, salad and yoghurt.
they ran out of sundae mix for my ice cream.
ran out of salad dressing of wad i wanted.
so i went into make my own ice cream. kuini was holding my salad for me,
she dropped half of it. -.-
Great.
so morgan had to made another one for me.

omg... wad a day again.
dono wad happn so unlucky.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

24 June 2008 was the most interesting day in my memory.
hmm.. wasn't good..
feeling so unlucky.
first i got a striking pain above my crotch, when i laugh and stretch
den i have my period,
so i went to work feeling so temperamental like a volcano tat might erupt any moment.
it was fine until someone stole my drink -.-!!
and it happen to be kuini.
grrr.
also it was busy and corrina kept bumping on to me, becoz she is short and very plum.
tat made it worst.
after work i feel better,
met up with connie and shanie and daddy to Chinese restaurant to have dinner.
after dinner, we were at the traffic light waiting for the light to turn red to we could go.
[tum dump]
a loud drop.
turn to see what happen was jux instinctively.
a lady has juz fallen from the top of the escalator to the bottom.
body was twisted.
she was unconscious.
her kids was screaming and crying at the top of the escalator.
her grocery was everywhere,
someone stop the escalator.
security guards came within seconds.
an ambulance came within minutes.

we din stay for the show, purely because we have to go back to redbank in ispwich which i outta brisbane.

daddy drove..
half way the police called,
connie drop her lv purse in the carpark and someone handed into the police.
intending to go back into the city to get it tomorrow.
on the highway,
dady missed the exit entrance when we should have exited,
so he continue travelling, not knowing how to get back to the opposite lane of the high way.
after a while, we r at some wulu wulu place.
and we r outa ispwich.
great. the day jux got better.[sarcarstically]
so we drove out in some random exit and finally got back to brisbane but never back onto the highway for some reason.

gahh.
so we end up back in the city, got connie purse and went back to redbank from there.
the whole journey took us 1h50mins and plus another 35 mins to get home from the city.
and we got home at around 12

taking the pram and stuff outa the boot of the car,
i got connie 2 cups of yoghurt in a bag, placed properly.
when she put the bag of yoghurt inthe boot, she open the bag and chucked her bottle and the baby bottle in the bag. and put it in the boot.

reach home, taking out everything from the boot, the bag of yoghurt exploded,
there's a hole under the paper bag, the yoghurt was leaking all over, and dripped on the pram and on the yard. creating a mess.

now isnt tat an interesting bad day??

great huh!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

moved house.
house owner sold the house.
no where to stay.
so temporary stay put at raymund's hse[ daddy friend]
raymund went to his girlfriend house to stay and gave the whole house to us to live in temporary.

kuini came to ours one day7 am in the morning.
shanie me and kuini was sleepin on 1 queen size bed.
kuini wa so close to the edge, so i told her to be careful and not fall on the floor otherwise tat will be my morning entertainment.

30 mins later,
[KA BOM]
SHANIE WAS ON THE FLOOR.
and i laughed my lungs out.. lol

giselle was so noisy all morning.
she kept trying to talk..
making noise...
eeeahhhhhohhhoooyaake......
she's 4 months old le.. =]
so cute..
her laughing sounds like crying.. hahahas

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

06 March 2008
8:32 PM

its been a long time since i view zhuzhu de blog le.
went there a moment ago,
suddenly felt so emotional, wanna cry.
i miss those days where we chill out at chillz bar.
seeing them going to chilz bar without me made me feel so empty and Sad.
sign oh well im jux the odd one out.

i jux hope my next trip back will be fun, and i hope to spent more time with her than anyone else unless.. meh..

connie wan to go to thailand and she asked if i wan to go, i don mind but im not sure if it is gonna happen or not. we shall c.

i wonder: if mommy really rent the whole house out to someone elses then where am i goin to stay when i go back for hoiday? i don really like the idea of staying with my aunt. -.- hmm.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

woo hoo, remember how i got into UQ and i was whining bout how far i have to travel so on and on, so i waited for the second offer and got in to my desire campus QUT. after attending a week of Uni i feel so weird but fun, i reckon its so hard to make new friend coz my lecture is so big, up to 400 student in a classroom listening to a lecturer lecturing, plus every class different people sits beside you, but lucky for me on my first week i've made a couple friend so wasnt too bad.

however after the first week i've decided to defer uni for a year. Reasons: the fees are expansive every semester i have to pay $2650 UPFRONT!! upfront how am i gonna produce such money in such a short notice and woking in MacDonald cant help much at all. Plus Daddy is not gonna have the money for me, he said he would get the sum for me but i doubt it. coz he will either go to casino and try his luck or get advance pay which i don really want him to do it. so nah not gonna happen nor is it happening. so its all about me now. plus my textbooks are Frigging expansive text book which are complusory are already costing me $530 and if i were to buy the other reference textbook which are not complusory pretty sure they are gonna cozt me about $700+. so i need at least $3000 for uni each semester. thinking bout the $ makes my head big already.

so yeah defer and work.

oh good news for me, i got a pay rise $15.34 an hour. Woo hoo~ go me.
today i talked to my manager bout being a full timer but unfortunately my stall do not want full timers, so i can only be a casual and get 38hours as the maximum hours. oh oh another good news, kyile said on the next manager meeting she is going to bring up the matter of letting me become an area coordinator which means if i really got promoted my pay is gonna rise again. wahh.. sound so shoik hor but no promises. so its best not to have my high hopes on.

sigh 38 hour a week is actually not quite enough.
so i'm going to look for a second job tml at the cookie shop. hehe..
and wish me luck yeah? ^.*

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

27 January 2008
6:58 PM

grandma died after an operation on her leg, during midnight 3am,
dad heard the news the next day and flew back to singapore during the night to attend grandma funeral. because grandma has converted into a christian, the funeral was only held for 3day.

i had a dream, when i woke up, i found myself crying.
coz, i dreamt about grandma and granddady, they came to my hse for a visit,
granddaddy stood there in the balcony smiling and grandma was having a small talk with me,
and when i ask if she want to stay and have some food to eat,
grnad ma told me that she cant stay and had to leave coz she is on her way to go.

her body was cremated on friday.
before she pass away she asked: why are there childeren visiting me?
childern that we cant see.
mommy say she pass away peacefully,
she was smilling when she die.

rest in peace grandma.
you'll be missed.
love.
...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

20 January 2008
11:23 PM

after a couple days of thinking and desicsion making,
i've came to the final disicion that i don want UQ anymore.

its at ispwich!! its outa brisbane, its a 7 zone district!!.
its gonna take me more than 2h to reach my campus.
meaning less sleeping in time and lotsa travelling..
i don think i can do it if i were to work and study at the same time when my campus is so far away from home and work.

i tot of moving into the campus,
but thinking about how much its gonna cost me, no deal...
so yeah, i think i am going to QUT [ queensland university of technology] now at kelvin grove which is within a 3zone compound still..
but i will need to call QTAC to make that changes tomorrow...
agrr..
so many complications..
its all gonna be worth it i guess.

well, if i cant go the the best uni i can still go to the top uni of brisbane ^^

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

UQ!!
UQ wants me..!!!!
WOO HOO~~~

i went to my QTAC to check which uni has offer me a place.
and UQ offered me a full time nursing course..

i'm so over the moon...
WooHooo!!!~~~~

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Work is driving me to my grave soon. This particular guy CHRIS, he is a noob.
I’m fine with noob but not this noob who think he is all so smart because he got an OP 1 and he has “too much attitude” quoted from Jeremy Houston. Frigging hell, he is short sighted and he doesn’t wears his glasses, and guess what? I pulled out a double cheese burger clam, placed the bun in place, sauced it when I was about to put the onion on, he came over quickly and put the large onion instead of the small onion on. So I told him, “Erm, it’s a double cheeseburger so it’s small onion not large” and he told me he though it was a double quarter. O.O… the clams are so different the size is so different if u were to compare the 2 burgers. Grrr, so he left me with the mistake burger. How nice of him -.-…

That shift I was told by the restaurateur to be in charged of the whole back area and my responsibility is to keep everything in place. I placed James Wu on line because he is fast enough to manage 3 orders himself, and Christ on grill/ fry because he can’t be left on line for 2 minutes, and if I were to place him on line we are going to wasted a lot of buns, Cameron, he volunteer himself to do jobs and for me I was on deli and a chaser on line. On top of that I had to check and assure that all breakfast stuff has been pulled out from the freezer to defrost, ready for tomorrow use, and make up more presets for deli station.

Christ was on grill/ fry. The bottom of the grill was greasy as it has stains of fats drips. I wiped down the first grill for him and passed him a grill cloth to wipe down the second grill.
W: [passing grill cloth] can u please wipe down the grill.
C: oh ok. [Placed the grill cloth on the bench]

3minutes later I look at his grill and my grill.

W: have u wiped down the grill?
C: agrr, [wiping the grill]

Christ stood up and put the grill cloth on the bench again. I look at his grill:
W: u missed a spot. In fact you miss 3 spot.
C: why clean the grill when it is going to be dirty again. [in an annoyed tone]
W: because the manager said so.

I was thinking deep in my heart why bother eating then because you are going to get hungry again even if you eat. I dint say it because I don want to quarrel with him, it’s not worth it.

After James was gone he finishes at 7pm. It’s left with Christ, Cameron and me.
Cameron has to start pre-close so I was on the line with Christ. Its torturing, to be honest I rather be on the line alone then having him to help me.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Woke up this morning, feeling bored, walked around the house and when to collect the mail. A letter from ACU [Australian catholic university] they were offering me a position in their university, I was delighted at the same time vexed. Delighted because the uni of my second choice wanted me, vexed because I don’t really want to go to this university, UQ [University of Queensland] is more of my idea uni, the uni that I really wanted to go to. Also as soon as I know my result, I changed the choice of university by taking away the second nominated uni ACU on my list to QUT [Queensland University of Technology].

So many complications, need to call up QTAC and ask them why an I being referred to as an international student. If I am stated and known as an international student by all university, there’s no way I could afford the fees of $46800 for a 3 year course. $1300 a month... It’s frigging expansive, a rip off!! Humph.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

21 December 2007
9:36 PM

Ring Ring..

"hello?"

"are u sleeping?? where r u??"

"of coz i am sleeping, im at home. y?"

"ur sister is in the hospital now and im with her"

"wot?"

"dint u hear all the noises? the paramedics came!"

" u serious? coz.. i dint hear anything"

"i think ur sister is in labour now."

"omg. ok, i'll be there soon"

it was like 6.45 am in the morning, kiera called me after she reached the hospital.

connie was having stomach contraction so she was sented in to the hospital.

Quickly took a cab down to Royal Brisbane Hospital after a shower.

went into the labour room, she was sucking some kind of gas from a tube,

the gas is to help her... relieve a little?? maybe??

but according to connie the gas was useless it did nothing at all..

connie keep having contractions, pretty sure it hurts alot..

every contraction she seems to be in agony, she screams, she beg, she sweats in an air conditioned room. at one stage she even thought of giving up.

if she gave up, the baby would stuck there..

i saw a new life born, it was LIVE!!

its so amazing.. the head pops out a little, it was black.

i tot that the baby skin colour was black, like the father.

but after her whole head popped out, phew its not black, tat was only her hair colour. Lol..

she was kinda brownish jux like a malay..

after the baby is born, the placenta came out too..

normally pple throw out the placenta, but the nurse asked if we want to keep it or not.

the girls of coz dint want to. BUT, the daddy is like okie we'll keep it.

stupid nurse she said: some pple bury the placenta in dirt and plant a tree on it.

in some poor countries, they even cook the placenta with herbs and eat it.

EWW gross much??!! And because he lives in an apartment theres no garden, but because we lived in a house, he was thinking about planting a lemon tree in our backyard/ garden.. OMG.

and after the lemon tree grows lemon he intend to eat it.. eww, so we'll change to buying limes instead of lemon so that lemons wont get mixed up if they store it in the fridge.. hahahs

so she stayed in hospital for a good whole 3 days with a tv to accompany her..
i kept her company for the 1st whole day...^^

when she got back form the hospital,
she said she missed it,
im like Y??

coz, i missed the food they gave me... -.-
lol..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

19 December 2007
9:04 PM

maybe ur right, we dint change, our life did...
u r something to me, if u r nobody to me, i wont even care if there's a change.

result release le.
ranging from OP 1 to 25, i got a OP 14.
i got wat i needed and wanted.
but i expected better.
sigh if i dint miss 3weeks of school for the last term for the trip,
i could probably get a better OP.
oh well guess its fated..
at least i got wad i needed.
should feel contented.

nursing, bartender and air stewardess.
so going for nursing first.
i wanna get a cert for bartending.
someday one day, i shall get it..
hmm..

now waiting for the day to know which uni accepted me.
University of Queensland,.. u know u want me...(hahas)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

18 December 2007
12:56 AM

in my back yard playing with tess

isnt she adorable.

at the bus stop, and she came

sitting beside my foot at the bus stop ^^

something random happen today.. ^^
i wish i could keep the dog..

walking to the bus stop like always, sit on the bench and wait...
suddenly a dog ran out towards my direction from the pathway to the estate area..
she ran towards me, n to my suprise she stick to me, she sat beside my feet when i move she move..hahahss.. so cute.

knowing it was somebody's pet, i sat there with the dog waiting for someone to come n pick her up. but there wasn't anyone, and i don wan to leave her there alone. wad happen if it crosses the road n... hmmm..
so i decided to bring it to find its owner. and because the dog was sticking so close to me I've no trouble having her to follow me. i run she run i walk she walk beside me.. hahas.. so cute..^^

i stop and petted her after we ran through the pathway, den i realize there was a tag on her neck, the dog name was Tess and theres the owner number. so i called the hse no. no one picked up so i call the mobile no. and her owner picked up. she asked if i could put her in my backyard and she would come n pick Tess up. i'm like ok..

so i brought Tess into my back yard, we had a little fun. it was so adorable..
when i was about to leave, droplets started to fall. i don know how long will it take for her owner to come, n what if the rain gets too big? Tess will be drenched.. so i stayed with her, hoping tat the rain wont get any bigger.

after 15mins den the owner came. she offer to drive me to the bus stop, as i hopped into her car the rain got so big. phew..
she told me, Tess is afraid of storm and Tess is all alone at home, so she ran out to look for a companion to keep her company. Tess is a kind of dog tat is very affectionate, it would sit by your side n let u pet it all day.

and because of this incidence, i was late for work. i call up n told chris tat i will be late and he said it was alright. 5past 5, ezza call and ask if i know i am starting at 5, so i told him i called b4 tat i would be 10 to 15 mins late, he was so mad at christ for not telling him and he was like agrr tat fucking chris. hmm.. when i walk into the stall dave was like: u know u start at 5 right.
omg i was annoyed, pretty sure they need to communicate!! humph

close close close.. again.. wasnt tat bad..
tired le..
Zzz...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

16 December 2007
6:01 PM

went out last night to a gathering to say farewell to Portia who quited her job.
jade n Tina dint go becoz jasmine was going. (it was a long story y they dint like each other)
kuini drove me into the city, and were like the earliest.
Portia n Daniella were there long ago n was bumming around. went to brewhouse and den moved on to fat louise.

it was a boring night coz we went to pub n not club we have about 15 people but everyone jux scattered around, so i ended up playing a game of pool with Micheal, Jeremy was kinda drunk and he cant even aim properly at the ball.. man i laughed so much watching him play. he even try to teach Lauren how to play.. lol..Cassie came after, and she had a game of pool with Damon. she look so different when she is out from her uniform. stunning ^^

Corrina n Kirstin came. OMG @@
lol. pretty sure when they were walking towards our table, everyone jux stared at her boobs.
coz Corrina in short and is more than plum/ fleshy, OK, i shall stop rounding around, in short she is short and round. she has boobs tat an E size cup bra couldn't even fit everything in, its MASSIVE!!
and she wear a tube dress, a SHORT tube dress so when she bends over, the bum flashes, becoz her boobs was so big n the dress haven got much material to cover up both ends so when the dress manage to cover up her bum it flashes half of her boobs.. Eww.. no exaggeration here!!
she went to tattoo a 4leaf icon on her boobs and it was soo tiny. Whahahsss..

yeah.. it was really bored even kuini dint want to stay long. so shes like: do u wanna go now??
i was feeling tipsy n tired so i nodded and she drove me home.. Omg.. nv gonna go unless pple i like hanging out with like nick, julianna, jade and some others are going den i'll go..

waiting next year for daniel, thien and morgan to turn 18..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

15 December 2007
1:15 AM

i feel so happy these few days.

after knowing "him" my day seems to brighten up a fair bit. ^^

and i realize i begin to talk alot with customers.. haha..

as in like.. erm.. a big small talk.. we actually chatted..

oh man. coz i was feeling all so happy,

when i served the customer, i served with enthusiasms or a friendly service.

and my customers seems to like me... its a nice thing..

few days back, a customer came and ordered a coffee, after i gave it to him he was like " you are very beautiful". and tat was random..

another customer, he ordered coffee too so i ask if he needed any sugar his reply was: "you are sweet enough for me." and the customer standing beside him waiting for his food chuckled..

how embarrassing.
theres more...
theres this incidence that i will never forget i found it hailarious.
2 gay looking guys came up to my friend register,
looking bold, about 166-8m in height, below average size, dark coloured skin and a caucasian, wearing a black stretchy tight fitted singlets in silk and skinny leg jeans, and another friend of theirs cam to mine and ordered a mealwhen he was goin through his wallet for "gold", he found something. the 2 gay looking guy was like "give it to her, give it to her" so when he was about to pay guess wot?!!

he gave me whatever he found in his wallet and that his friends told him to give it to me.
he pass it to me ,
i took it,
to my suprise, it was a

FRIGGIN
CONDOM!!

and i dint know unill i had it in my hands.
so wad i did,
i throw it back into his Face,
bonus him a death stare and said: its not funny
it worry him a little n started apologising.

and deep i was laughing so was the customer standing beside who viewed the whole situitation..

such little incidence does add a little spice to work at times..^^

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

worked from 12 to 12 today.. a big day..
my orginal shift is from 4 -9pm, but chelsee couldnt do her shift and asked me to do it.
so im like okie.. 2h to knock off, cameron wasnt feeling too good and asked if i wanna help him close. i dint wan to but because of the crap he gave everyone and so, most crew dislike him no one wanted to help him out.
i felt pity for him so i promised. but kylie dint really agree to it.
she wanted cameron to work his shift, coz ive been working since 12.
plus a crew cant work more than 10h a day.
but becoz its illegal if they don let cameron go home when he is unwell they hv no choice, but to let me do the close and let hime go home.

its friday night, everyone is out clubbing, city is packed with party people while i stay in the stall and work my ass out.
amazingly, we finished everything b4 12 on a well known known busy friday night.
while i was about to leave, nick looked at me and said:" winnie, thank you so much for doing the close for cameron and not let him close with me, thank you so much" and gave me a hug..

i was pretty much speechless, nothing else to say other than "its okie" with a smile.

my body feels like a robot today.
all i ate within the 12h was only a mini snack wrap.
i wasnt even hungry, only ate because i know i need the energy.
now sitting in my living room bloggin, i still don feel tired,
but only feeling sore in my limbs and the cuts on my finger..

closing is tough. never fail to complete closes without having any cuts on finger as memories.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

12 December 2007
10:27 PM

work today was agrr...
time passes so slow even though it was only a 4h shift.
maybe its becoz i am feeling lethargic n lazy to work, and couldn't control myself from not looking at the clock.
hahas.. i was yawning throughout the whole shift.

after work tot of catching 380 so tat i don hv to walk far away, but i kinda miss my bus so end up catching the 385 bus. it was raining, feel so nice, the cooling wind blew across my tired skin.
how i wish i was at home going to bed. such a nice weather.

after walking in the drizzling weather for bout 25mins or so, i saw a long tree branch/ stick in front of me, as i approach closer to it, i got the urge to step on it and was close to laying my foot on it until i thought i saw it moved, i jumped across it instead with shock and ran a little as i tot it was a snake.

after recalling my reaction to the "moving" stick, i chuckled abit at my stupidity..
feeling not happy about how the "moving" stick has actually scared the hell outta me i turn back and looked/ stared at tat stick.
to my holy molly surprise, tat was no stick but a snake!! EWWW (goosebumps)...
coz it move again, sliding across the pathway into the grass..
tat instance my goosebumps all stand n my body shivers..
walking into spider webs is bad enough already and now i nearly step on a snake and wads next??
a toad jump away from my foot?? (touch wood touch wood!!)

Omg, after seeing the snake I'm really scare n worry about walking the shortcut full of grass patches with no street light. cant even see wads coming..
was freaking out badly.. so i jumped and ran and jump and run until i reach the end of the short cut leading to the road which is free from grasses. phew..

pace up and got home in no time.

Home Sweet Home...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

pass few nights hv been sleepin late..
starting to feel sick le..
he's sick le. down with a flu.
poor boy. i pray and hope that he get better soon..
thanks for staying up late with me.
i really enjoyed ur company.
sometimes i really hope that there will be someone who i really like to chat with to be online 24/7 so that when i go online he will always be there for me..
but tats jux a wishful thinking..
be there 24/7 for me!! hahas..
i shall jux keep dreaming.

few days back, my nick in msn said:
"its so hard to find someone comfortable to talk to at the same time listen and care".
connie den said: u can talk to me ma.
thank u. but...
sometimes when i wan to talk to u, u will be on the com thus ignoring me or get irritated.
or u will scold me for what i said. or worst pick a fight.
if u realize, i don really like to quarrel, everytime when u raise ur voice at me,
and start arguing with me i would always go: "hmm" and walk away, to my room and not come out to chat anymore.
haix.

now tat xiao zhu hv a bf,
she seems really busy, occupied.
i tried calling her but feels like theres nothing much to talk about le.
The close relationship we once had seems to drift futher apart le.
plus if i tok to her its always me talking...

maybe i am too picky le ba.
oh well..
perhaps something is best to keep to myself.
bottle all things up.
and swallow down.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

09 December 2007
11:43 PM

finally the day of winnie graduating has come.. ^^
weeks b4, i asked daddy if he is coming to my graduation day but he's like.. "ask me again when its near"

so, i did.. but hes like he cant go and have to work.. fair enough..
he burnt his hand with hot oil..
went to the doc, doc gave him 3 weeks leave..

2days b4 graduation i ask him if he was coming. and he say he had to work..
coz his leave that doc gave has finish..
i was den thinking the ceremony starts at 7 and finish at 9..
he could make it if he is working in the afternoon..

formal day came..
went to sch b4 7.
so nervous.. so many people..
almost everyone parents and some relative was there..
i wish my dady was there too...
i went up for my cert..
and guess wad miss hamilton was SEARCHING for my cert!! wot the..
den she finally gave me one which i tot it was mine..
so i went back to my seat, open the cert book..
it was someone else!! i was like wot the..
after the whole thing she swopped it back for me..

we walked around. took some pic...
..

went home..
and guess wad..
i saw my dad at home...
and he dint hv to go to work...

haix...
i wish mommy was here.
maybe she would attend...

to me its something big.
itis a big accomplishment for me.
coz i was the first who actually graduated..

oh well.. it's already over..
bahh..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*